[00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:10.000]   [SOUND]
[00:00:10.000 --> 00:00:16.000]   So this should be recording just fine right now. Let's test to make sure.
[00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:38.000]   Mental as in I'm in my own way.
[00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:44.000]   I'm in control of part of it consciously.
[00:00:44.000 --> 00:00:53.000]   There is the component that I don't have control of.
[00:00:54.000 --> 00:01:02.000]   And that is the mental health aspect of it.
[00:01:02.000 --> 00:01:12.000]   So those are like uncontrolled tides.
[00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:21.000]   They come and go on their own schedule.
[00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:29.000]   So they really don't give a shit about you or what your plans are
[00:01:29.000 --> 00:01:32.000]   or what it is you want to get done.
[00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:41.000]   Because it's got it's planets and it's steel and it's things that don't seem to get dark.
[00:01:47.000 --> 00:01:57.000]   You want me passing this young whole day, fucking it up, making it so you can't get anything
[00:01:57.000 --> 00:02:06.000]   down. Or if you do, it feels minimal. And really any context.
[00:02:10.000 --> 00:02:26.000]   So you're fighting against a disease in your own inertia from said affliction.
[00:02:26.000 --> 00:02:36.000]   Because it has its own battery of things that come along for the ride.
[00:02:40.000 --> 00:02:48.000]   There's sorts of features that we've been showing in the world.
[00:02:48.000 --> 00:02:58.000]   The patterns are so goddamn obvious.
[00:02:58.000 --> 00:03:05.000]   And even knowing the patterns it still really doesn't matter.
[00:03:05.000 --> 00:03:09.000]   Particularly when you're dealing with something that's...
[00:03:10.000 --> 00:03:12.000]   inside your skulls.
[00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:20.000]   Who really is driving the bus all day?
[00:03:20.000 --> 00:03:29.000]   I think it's all a...
[00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:34.000]   ...fabrication, honestly.
[00:03:41.000 --> 00:03:44.000]   Today is the first day of March.
[00:03:44.000 --> 00:03:51.000]   In a month, it feels warm, it's sunny, there's some kind of weird...
[00:03:51.000 --> 00:03:57.000]   positive ion thing going on.
[00:03:57.000 --> 00:04:03.000]   It feels like an ocean thing, but I don't think it is.
[00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:14.000]   I'll be something with mountains in India now.
[00:04:14.000 --> 00:04:22.000]   Hi.
[00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:35.000]   So, come on down.
[00:04:35.000 --> 00:04:40.000]   I'm getting it moving along.
[00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:52.000]   There is a lot of snow on the mountains.
[00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:02.000]   And...
[00:05:02.000 --> 00:05:11.000]   There is a day I just don't.
[00:05:11.000 --> 00:05:14.000]   I feel pretty.
[00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:25.000]   That really says "Hands over me".
[00:05:26.000 --> 00:05:29.000]   It's a little bit of a mess over here.
[00:05:56.000 --> 00:05:59.000]   I'm so glad that you're here.
[00:06:27.000 --> 00:06:36.000]   I have a massive uneasy feeling right now.
[00:06:36.000 --> 00:06:43.000]   You can do an idea of where it's sourced from.
[00:06:56.000 --> 00:06:59.000]   I'm so glad that you're here.
[00:07:26.000 --> 00:07:33.000]   "Hands over me".
[00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:37.000]   It's a good walk.
[00:07:57.000 --> 00:08:02.000]   It's trees like they've seen in the fire.
[00:08:26.000 --> 00:08:32.000]   You can do an idea of where you're supposed to be.
[00:08:32.000 --> 00:08:46.000]   It's not where I'm supposed to be.
[00:08:55.000 --> 00:09:00.000]   Where you're supposed to be is a really strong feeling.
[00:09:00.000 --> 00:09:14.000]   I just don't like that feeling and I've had it for two years now.
[00:09:14.000 --> 00:09:20.000]   For two years it's been... I don't belong here.
[00:09:25.000 --> 00:09:43.000]   You know, I got kicked off of the bus and onto some alternate reality that I didn't sign up for.
[00:09:43.000 --> 00:09:47.000]   I don't remember signing up for this.
[00:09:50.000 --> 00:09:58.000]   You're going to have a couple years of your life just to you know and void.
[00:10:10.000 --> 00:10:17.000]   Shut this down almost here all the time.