# Recovery & Healing — Quotations

- Hope you have a nice weekend away with the family.
- I hope to have him all setup later today.
- Hope the day is going well.
- Hope you have a good weekend.
- Hope it's fun!
- Hope it's a good day
- Hope all is well.
- Hope you were able to find Dave.
- And hope today is good for you.
- Hope you were able to connect with Smoking Dave
- Hope Halloween was good 😊🎃
- Hope all is well in the Rocky Mountains.
- Hope weekend was good!
- Hope your weekend went well!
- Losing that one game yesterday should put us out, but holding out hope the team will get invited back in
- Hope you have a great weekend!
- I just started seeing my therapist again after not going for 4 years.
- Hope you didn't eat too much!😊🦃💩
- Glad to hear you are feeling better!!
- Hey good morning, hope you are doing well and the family as well.
- Hope your trip is going well
- Hope you're doing well.
- Hope you are doing well.
- Hope your day is going well!
- Hope you're having a good day
- Then it becomes a building a better mouse trap and entering an existing space
- hope you're doing something fun!!
- Hope all is going well with Sara and the baby 👶
- Hope all is well there in Colorado.
- Having a tough time keeping myself hopeful and optimistic.
- It's clear to teachers, admin and Liz and I that things are only going to get tougher for him as time progresses.
- I've leased because payments are less and can get a better vehicle.
- hope the rest of your saturday went well.
- Hope your monday is going well 😊
- I wish it was better.
- hey hope you're doing well out there.
- the improvement is at a ‘micro' level.
- and yes 1% better daily.
- type the IP into your browser and you should get served the site in progress
- hey there, hope the last day of the year is going well for you.
- Hope you had a good weekend over there
- hope you're doing well today.
- Hope you had a good weekend.
- by the time my birthday rolls around I want to feel better overall.
- hope its going well out there.
- hope that helps
- hope its going well
- May take a sick day, mental health day
- Hopefully will pass soon
- hope the Super Bowl didn't bore you too much
- better sleep, better eating controls in the evening.
- hey there, hope you are doing well.
- I feel better, but not 100%.
- not mental health
- Hope you're doing well out there in the mountains.
- busy is good, but hope its fruitful and not just spinning wheels.
- Hey there, hope your Tuesday is off to a good start.
- Hope things are going well out there, let me know 😊
- My brother tells me to just go get meds from dr.
- Nat is better today and stable.
- Hope you and yours are all well.
- Hope you had a good weekend and hope all is well in your world
- better off dead
- Hey there Darrell, hope everything's going well in your world.
- like they feel "better" very quickly
- Hope your day is going well and you're getting everything you want
- Need some strategies to being better.
- which is better than having no work I guess.
- Hope I'm not catching you in the middle of a trip
- Hope all is going ok 👌 😁
- I've been better.
- Hey there, hope your day is going well!
- Food, shelter, and health insurance essentially decide when I stop working.
- Hope you're having a good Sunday
- He just had a recent surgery, but otherwise was an OK Health.
- Hope you are well.
- Hope the family and kids are well.
- I've made a little bit of progress in unpacking what I am afraid of
- He would break me for not getting better grades and I always felt like I wasn't living up to some standard.
- Hope you're doing well out there.
- Hope you have fun off grid.
- Hey there Darrell, hope your Wednesday is going OK
- hope you're well.
- Hope my WiFi lake placid is good
- Hope you are well
- There feel a little bit better now
- Better
- The contrast is better on the button, but that doesnt look like a button, maybe because its white.
- Hope Thursday is going well.
- Its looking MUCH better!
- Hope you are doing well out there in the mountains.
- hope you catch them!
- Hey there, sounds like you got a good weekend in progress.
- Hope your Monday is going well.
- Hope you're having good day over there
- Health is not where I want to be I am.
- Big thing is you have your health, you can always make more money, and you have your amazing kids, and your lovely wife.
- Hey man, hope you're out for some pints tonight.
- Hope your weeks off to a good start.
- Hope you're doing well out there in Colorado.
- Hey there, hope your Wednesday is going well.
- It feels hard, but I hope its worthwhile (freeing me up)
- Hey there, hope you're having a good Friday over there.
- scales better, easier to see/understand
- Not healthy and very dark.
- Hope Friday is treating you well out there
- Hope you had a good weekend
- Hope all is well
- But they work through it faster better quicker.
- You're no good to anybody until you get yourself better.
- They want to put me on meds for a year and see if it stabilizes or gets better.
- He said he's not worried about me heading down that road because I'm 50 and very healthy
- Hope baby and all of you are well 😁
- I'm hopeful that by investing in a daily practice I can begin to free up my mind from its less than fun habits.
- I've been better honestly.
- My stress levels are very high, and then I start worrying about health.
- Hey there, hope you're doing well today.
- Nice, hopefully they get in Before the storm hits hard
- Hope you're having a great holiday with the family!
- My mind has been so ‘stuck' on get-through-today thinking for a while and I've not been growing or getting better at much—like a plateau for many years.
- I think it may be health and money related.
- Liked "Yes - health is the foundation for everything else "
- Hope you're having a good start to the year.
- Happy Saturday!Hope you and Sarah are feeling better today.
- get those pain meds going 😊
- How goes the healing out there?
- Hope you're doing well out there
- Hope you're doing ok
- Hope you are all well and healthy
- Hope you're having a nice day with all your ladies
- Liked "It's getting better - no doing assisted strength moves - only where sling at night and when I leave the house"
- Hi, air is better but still smoky.
- hey hope you and the family are doing ok
- Hope you guys are feeling better!
- Took her a few days to recover.
- 2020 FTW!Deck the Halls to Black Sabbath's "War Pigs"So fitting.Hope you are all well!
- hope everyone out there is OK
- hope all your friends and peeps you know are ok
- she seems to be doing well, but taking longer to recover than me.
- I better do the same.
- Adjusting my meds based on call.
- Meet with a therapist this upcoming Sunday.
- Hope weekend went well!We on today?
- Work - in - progress
- This image is a foretelling and a warning the universe has asked me to pass on to you and Sarah.Be mindful of taking the kids to the home improvement store.
- Liked "Call me - see if we get a better connection "
- Later is better
- Hey there, hope you had good weekend!?Would it be possible for me to come out say...
- For you, life is better when it's simple and uncluttered.
- waves of fear, anxiety, shame, guilt, grief and despair.feeling awful, but if I remember correctly its just a feeling and hopefully it will pass
- Hey there, hope its going well
- hope the day is going well with the kiddos
- https://youtube.com/c/HealingVibrationsMedia
- My hope is that she can "feel" the lack of negative energy
- Good morning Hope the day is off to decent start.Sorry I did t strip the bed 😬Also, did I leave my big fat headphones there?Think I left them charging in the room
- Good hands but didn't think others were better
- Hope u feel better soon
- Hope this helps.Let me know if you have any questions.Hope you're feeling better
- Hope you like those books.
- Hope you are all feeling better out there!
- hope you and the family are doing well
- Feeling any better?
- Glad to hear 👂 you're feeling better
- Mild at first, but then progressed.
- feeling "healthy?"
- He hast to go to physical therapy otherwise he may be crooked.
- He's leaning one way because of his ribs and if he doesn't get PT and it heals with him leaning he will be leaning forever
- And getting started on EMDR therapy today as well to deal with old trauma that is still harboring inside my body
- I want to get better ❤️‍🩹 So I don't feel like 💩 every day.
- Hopefully can come out of this entire fuckup a better person.
- He's doing better.
- It reads better, more succinct in a few places
- it reads better
- I'll get better or die trying.
- Hopefully bank project or job you're after!
- Have connected with a therapist in Ventura who does the type of treatment I'm looking for.
- Once I get working with therapist I should see further acceleration in progress.
- Start DBT on Friday.Supply chain hiccup leaves craft breweries scrambling for aluminum can alternatives
- I'll give you a call tomorrow I have an appointment in Ventura with a therapist to work on some DBT.Call you after 11am pst, ok?
- moderate mental health day for me
- Making progress
- Makes me feel there is no hope
- Moments where feel a little "better" but always seem to end in deep sadness, regret, and shame.
- He's not being consistent with his homework/exercises so he's getting better at sloth like speeds.
- time isn't healing wounds
- Trying to heal my marriage and heal myself at the same time
- I know I'm not the only one with this going on in the world and its recognized by mental health professionals.
- my new DBT therapist is very confident that once I've learned the skills and put them into practice consistently I should see transformation
- here's search results for 25miles within Longmont from the National EMDR therapist registry :
- It can get better, I do know that
- Big picture, the overriding feeling is that I will never experience happiness, joy, or love ever again - that how I've felt for over a year now.I'm losing hope
- hope you're having a good saturday
- hope u r doing well and the family too!
- In a better head space today.not so grim
- Made excellent progress past few days, its getting close.
- Oy vey!Hope everyone is asymptomatic
- Hope u all are doing well this morning!
- Liked "Paint therapy- left handed"
- Until the kids immune system‘s become more resilient it's par for the course 😀I really do hope you and Willow avoid it and the other ladies start feeling better soon
- coming out of covid took me longer to recover from any other illness.
- Making good progress, and working on it pretty much all of today
- Should have been on meds, and not drinking.
- The shame feels eternal and inescapable, even with meds and talking about it.
- I hope you're feeling better today
- Check my progress out on Insight Timer
- made good progress today.
- hope you and the family are doing well.
- The lack of progress on our relationship hurts a lot and makes me sad.
- And the longer it goes on the more hope I lose to ever get back together.
- times like this when the phrase "better off dead" sounds good
- I reached out to a counselor in Ventura about couples therapy:
- https://www.beachside-therapy.com/
- I hope everything is going OK for you and the family trying to get everything rounded up so you can move to the next phase of your life.
- The movie title "Better off dead" Sums up my attitude and feelings now
- I feel a lot better after writing just that.
- I've run it thru gramma rly so spelling and such should be all good.Looking for:— clarity— contrition— and caringI hopefully make sense.
- Send me some pictures I'd love to see the progress
- feeling big time "better off dead" vibes
- Made more progress today
- Patient and hopeful
- I'm getting much better at avoiding any meaning, but when it's this close to your heart it's incredibly challenging not to get sucked in
- Word tonight from Liz is she was feeling better today.Declan and I saw her on Tuesday and she was MUCH better than anticipated.
- made a bit of progress
- Hey there, I just left the hospital visiting Sallie and she is doing much much better.
- Feels like this is never getting better ❤️‍🩹 it breaks my fucking heart to contemplate that.
- much better.
- better, but still wearing a sling
- I'm hopeful that something will pan out that is a good fit, and if it does, I'll likely go down a rabbit hole during the ramp-up process.
- Just got off a call with a recruiter who is connecting me to Kaiser Permanente for a possible contract position, and another healthcare company based in Long Beach for a full-time remote position.
- Besides the fact that her mom's health has been unsteady these past couple of months.2.
- Thanks, I feel much better this morning, I realize I was triggered in the moment of course and went on tons of feelings.
- Hey there, Hope u and the family are all well.
- this is FAR better.
- Hopefully you can scan and reply by then.
- hopefully 🙏 things will work out with them.
- I've gotten far better at dealing with this.
- Hope u had a decent day
- And even that bit of progress on a job lead and I still feel this suffering in my heart.
- The hope is it won't show up the next morning.
- hopefully not be as depressed afterwards
- speaking of pics, which of these do you like better for my site?
- Mind is better
- Lots of good progress yesterday.
- Hope you had a good Monday!
- Hope your "getting out of the house" mode is going well.
- The feeling of "better off dead 💀 " is incredibly strong right now
- Partly why I have to leave the house to have a better meditation.I had placed hope in that this trip would allow me some space to let shit go but...
- I'm entirely over sensitive because it's a wound that never gets to scab over and heal
- I feel better already
- Better head spaceGood FaceTime with my mom
- this is better.MonTueWedup to 180 apps now
- feels better
- but they need to improve the product, and that's where I come in
- All this emotion shit and working on myself and trying to get better
- Hopefully I don't run into the campus security guy
- Besides you being awake I hope that I didn't wake up anybody else there
- The better question to think about is what does full out look like
- Likely the year talking with her therapist validating her story and emotions—locking it in airtight like a brainwashing.When I look, I dont see an open mind or an open heart.
- Like 12k would make it feel better to me.
- I still haven't recovered from Friday night
- I held out hope that things would get better, or someone would intervene.
- This is so weird text, rather speech to text has gotten a lot worse at translating what I'm saying they used to be a lot better
- Hopefully I will hear back in short order
- Good morning, I hope things are going well for you.
- Hopefully hear good news by EOD
- Does that work better
- Hope Florida is treating you all well!
- Hope the humidity isn't too bad.
- I regret we didn't communicate, but I was operating from a space of time and distance for her to heal.meanwhile I was just trying to process why I was being accused of and what transpired that day.
- hope your monday in FL is going well!Waiting for the updated contract.
- Some nights I lose hope.
- Better than a broken site.
- I do still need to get meds
- Liked "Hope you had a great first day with Hatch"
- hi, just had our first couples therapy session.
- Therapy long ago would have made us way stronger.
- I know that is a gigantic ask, but our session is tomorrow night and want to give our therapist time to review.the delay is on me.
- I plan to present this to the therapist in our talk on Sunday morning, and I want to get straight with her about what my objectives are here.
- I'm ready for my talk tomorrow with the therapist.
- I am emailing you a copy of my plan, it's a rough draft for me to progress
- Also thought 💭 about the fact that she brought me to her therapist multiple times few months after this happened.
- She was willing back then otherwise why drag me into a therapist, right?
- If we're going to make any progress, we have to keep going to sessions and communicating.
- My question for you and I hope you can answer before I leave is how do I broach the subject with her?
- Later in afternoon is better for me
- She just feels better/happier when she's not around me I guess.
- He said I don't want to get to the point where maintenance is loading my shit on a truck and dumping it off campusI hope to God Liz does not do that.
- For me it's better by text.
- I was just thinking that I wanted to Text Liz and say, "I hope triathlon and chasing Kona gave you everything you wanted in life."
- It's never felt more hopeless in my life
- The divorce isn't going to make things better it's gonna make things fucking worse.
- Oh, it will get easier over time, it will get better.That's you, it ain't me.
- I have seen your kindness and warm heart, and all the work you've done in the past 2 years getting to a better place.
- And to improve our communications so we can co-parent well in the future.I appreciate you and respect you.
- Here's what I just emailed the therapist.
- Hi Laurie,I hope this email finds you well.Tomorrow I would like to work on communication again.
- I've been on a solid combo of meds, which has helped.
- My therapist really ‘gets' where I'm coming from.Next session she, Laurie, wants to know what "all the ‘things' over the years is." As do I.
- I guess I'm better at helping people "get" tech.
- I also discovered that Liz stopped seeing the therapist she took me to a couple times before I headed your way.
- Liz is unwilling to put in the work to heal the relationship in any form — that's what I'm experiencing.
- I'm projecting happiness to others to send a message of hope and happiness.
- they lie to themselves to make others feel better
- Or the depression lies to them to make others better
- Sometimes I feel if we just went into hard therapy right away we might have fixed things.
- If I could go out, I would feel better but I feel like I can't go out because of the situation with Liz.
- Oh, and the therapist, but that's a virtual meeting so it doesn't technically count as in person.
- I am sure that in a few hours I will feel better.
- Here working until 6:30, running an errand to town and straight back home.The therapist suggested I get alcohol inks and create some art about my journey up until now.
- I keep telling them its towards myself but NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTAND THAT unless you're a mental healthcare professional.Anyhow this is what I've come to
- Better off dead never sounded better.
- Hope the idea that maybe once she sees that it's really happening, and it becomes more real for her and that I am going to leave.
- Retail therapy
- My goal is to end the day in a better mindset and accomplish something.
- Just sent this to the therapist.
- Therapist has commended me in session with Liz on how gracious and accommodating I'm being for going thru this process.Time to turn off nice, and just be non-plussed.
- https://open.spotify.com/track/2MwjZo81ldYYAah74RNQ85?si=N-kW1bhFQnmjnUV6F3VAoQ&context=spotify:search:better+off+dead
- Session with Therapist was good.
- It was very sad to admit in therapy with Liz sitting there, the fact that I have no friends here, or in and around Ojai.
- The therapist said to me in our one on one session how impressed she was that I was open and admitted that freely.
- I noticed at a certain point my therapist was wiping the corners of her eyes.Exactly as if you were catching someone who was trying to clear their eyes of tears before they started coming out
- Should things come into reality I don't want to put that burden on you, but there's no one else shared as much with And there's probably nobody who knows my current mindset better.
- The only difference now is that nothing seems to be getting better.
- Liked "Message from Gary V todayI hope todays a really ..."
- I just hope to God that things work out for me at least with the job stuff.If that shit falls through, I may go totally mental.
- Hope all is going well for you and the family.
- I hope to get most pixel pushing done today on the flight and wrap it all up tomorrow.
- Very last thing I will leave you with is thisI discovered today that my therapist had a session lined up right after me.
- Hope you are all having a good evening.
- Previously, I used to focus on the breath as a way of staying away from thinking to stay present, but now with this practice, I can focus on suffering and healing.
- Feeling for the sake of healing
- I communicate through the therapist now
- I mean, I'm doing the medicine I'm doing the therapy.
- I don't feel human, I feel outcast, I feel thrown away, I feel discarded, I feel less then, I feel hopeless, I feel suffering, I feel pain, I feel Gray, I feel dead inside
- I can pretend that things are going to get better, it's kind of like masking when I pretend everything is OK in my life and show people a normal face.
- I had a session with my therapist, rather our marriage counselor therapist.
- Needless to say, I shared this insight with my therapist, and now I am sharing it with you.My therapist asked me today in session, is there someone I can contact if I can't get a hold of you.
- – dashed hope # 639
- Hopeless + Helpless weak fuck I am
- On meds and feeling shit.
- Taking a photo every day to show progress.
- I hope your Friday is off to a better start than mine
- Absolute opposite of what my life was when I had children so I can appreciate your situation, OK hope to hear from you soon.
- I still feel them, but I realize I won't make any progress with Liz unless I get out of the house first.Would you agree with that statement?
- Went on a hike with the dog, and before that I was trying to make some progress on putting Declan's new window in.
- Hope you feel better soon.
- Hope you are feeling better—and the whole familia
- Have to put my shit in storage and hope I can pay the bill on it and not get my shit taken away
- I'll have to stop working with the therapist I've spent so much time investing in getting her to know our shit.
- Hi there, getting ready for my therapist session.
- hi, about to go into therapy session
- Felt.better for a bit.
- Some days are better than others
- would QR the same height at the type be better?
- Sent new resume and the following template:——Hi Tierra,This is Bert Mahoney.I hope this email finds you well!We spoke last September when I was actively looking for a position in the design field.
- good progress on this end.
- I'll hopefully have it online by 12 noon PST
- Hope you have a good day over there
- Just out of my therapy session
- Happy Sunday, hope it's going well
- And I was thinking of doing some posters related to mental health.
- I feel way better
- So we both come from small towns and love the outdoors.When we said goodbye she said "I hope to hear from you."Oh you will!
- I'll send pics and progress update at the end of the day with my move operations.
- Here's what I gave up my marriage for.I hope they love her as much as I did.
- Come on Misty up by maintenance, they have a couple of better than wall plug chargers.
- Better for me to discover the need for this adapter now then halfway to you.
- It's a better camping spot in terms of remoteness and view.
- By the way, this is way better than Walmart parking lot
- I've gotten way better at using the cars features to conserve battery power since I don't have a very large battery capacity
- Otherwise, I'm gonna take off without it and hope for the best.
- My hope is there a quality, masseuse, and chiropractor in Carbondale?
- OK I can do a better search now.
- This charger is filling up my battery better.
- https://youtube.com/@HealingVibrations
- Hopefully before noon.
- Nothing will get better despite good behavior, good intentions, and being an all-around OK person.
- I like this much better only for the fact I'm getting to know more about her personally and her life + background.Ok off to walk.
- The Notifications in form look MUCH BETTER.Let me know what you think.
- Still not 100, but better than 50%
- Hope you have a good day!
- Need to order meds
- But dont have my meds 😊 which I think is just under $200
- I feel this way because I'm making a lot of progress and other areas of my life but not career money and love.
- I hope all is well.
- Feeling better off dead
- Hope you have a good rest of the day.
- See your mom, then the next morning I hope my car makes it over Eisenhower pass and then , I'll visit with you guys
- I've been coaching since 2018 and they've never paid me a single penny, so I'm hopeful that may play for something 😊
- Let me get across the border into Colorado and I'll have a better idea of time rangeAnd if you could let tree and Don know that would be great.
- I keep hanging around thinking things are going to get better, and all they've done is get worse and worse and not going anywhere.
- Problem is she won't sit down and have real discussion and real engagement with a therapist.
- No, she told me she was waiting for me to get a job so I still have health insurance.
- He hopes to take the MVP and start presenting to potential clients.
- Hope it's going well over there
- I'm better now
- She's just two years older than me.She gave me her phone number and a little XO at the end of the message.That improved my spirits greatly.
- Not that I need that to improve my spirits but considering how long I've felt like shit like my time with Heidi I'll take what I can get.
- Better off Dead ☠️ My vibe right now
- Like I have a better chance of jumping up in the air and getting to the moon .
- Feels good and bad (memories of better times)
- Hopefully I get the calls, right
- Hope you're doing ok over there ⛰️ 🙂
- Hey, hope you're doing OK today.
- I hope you have fun with your family and going and seeing grandparents.Talk to you soon
- I have text for my resume that I have rewritten to be better with current resume scanning technologies and recruiter preferences.
- Please provide a bullet list of specific examples of improvement that would make my resume even better.
- Aim for a balance between detail and brevity.### Specific Suggestions for Improvement:1.
- Hopefully the work on the resume feeds into it.
- Then likely park car on east end roadside and hope popo doesn't come knocking
- I was somehow lumped into her past when I'm part of her present.So be it, she has her healing journey she's on and said that I'm not a part of it so that's that
- I'm hopeful I'll get this.
- I thought "better off dead" for years now, and nothings changed my mind on that.i'm carrying mine and Lizs shit on my back for the rest of my life.
- Better off dead Still hard for me to refute that over a year later.Life is worse now.
- It's my heart that will NEVER recover from this.I think I'm just going to be alone rest of my life because then no one can hurt me
- But I know I can just get used to it as it's better than being hurt or setting myself up to be hurt.Maybe that's might take away from all this is that I just need to be alone.
- Hope you're having a good day today — no triggers 😁
- Best to prepare for the worst and hope for the best
- Also, personal note: meds make half-masts.
- Things are going well, better than I thought or expected them to be.
- It feels different than before because it's not rooted outside meIt makes happiness feel even better
- Which is better than not having one.
- Hi Bert,Hope you had a great week!
- Hi Melissa,Not to be an ass (but maybe it will come across that way)Your email...."Hope you had a great week!
- https://www.inc.com/marcel-schwantes/neuroscience-says-1-brainless-habit-improves-memory-boosts-creativity-reduces-stress.html
- Listen I m sorry to drop this I don't have the money for therapy despite having health insurance
- I would have saved months of suffering if I had checked out last summerBy now everyone would have moved on and healed and I would be a memory
- I'm just simply tiredTired of doingTired of tryingTired of holding out hope
- Loved "Hope my listening helps Hope my kick in the ass q..."
- I am hopeful someone will understand.
- I am going thru an adjustment in my meds too so things are a bit up/down
- Wondering how to get a therapist when I can't afford oneMy shit is too heavy for a normal person to hear and respond to, and I know itSucks when you need help and can't get it
- Liked "That is the number for mental health resources in ..."
- I'm negative.I made good progress on job search front yesterday—connected to new recruiter.
- Also going to reach out to my last therapist.
- Now its tweaking and improvement, but the framework is in place.
- It just feels better than the normal deeper version of that.
- Am at the storage unit now doing some reorganization of my storage space for better access to my clothes, and also a chance to clean out my car after sleeping in it for now
- You said you would be home later so I took a chance and hoped that I would find you here.
- Hope day is going well.
- Hope you're doing well
- Once its considered better than ChatGPT I may jump
- Emailing the therapist today.
- Not sure I follow the therapist comment
- Liked "Getting into therapy- great step"
- I don't know how to teach it to you except for, 'I hope suffering happens to you'...
- Hopefully it works
- If I want to do better have to put in some time
- I need to be better at finishing it off.90% of the time I have 3/4 chances to close out while they catch up and then get beat to double out
- https://medium.com/inbox-when-ready/three-steps-towards-a-better-gmail-workflow-a14c7f00e777#.xzknb19ep
- Hope you're well.This was good today, or any dayThat's why I share
- Importance of Iterative Design in UX:- Iterative design significantly influences the quality of UX outcomes.- Consistent iterations lead to improved design quality over time.9.
- I have a pro therapy session with Laurie tomorrow @ 1pm.
- Having the original digital file will help me create a better rendition.
- "Thatcher is in process of having our re enrollment for health insurance.
- No, I hope you are doing well Not even a simple fucking Hi, ....OrHello, .....Just hey on your birthday I'm taking away your health insurance.
- Put my bank accts and do or dash over the past 12 months and you see that I have a good case of causing housing and food insecurity for someone with mental health issues.Again...Fuck her
- Dude I said it before and I'll say it again....BetterOffDead
- Meta hopes this will make its AI assistant more useful and popular with users.→ More details about Llama 3's release
- any whiff of progress and life always turns around to raise the ante on me.
- I talk to therapist today
- I'm ranting.I have a list of things I want to work on with therapist.
- I would've just taken myself out then why the fuck am I alive?The shit ain't gonna change, shit changes But my situation ain't gonna get any better.
- https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/health/conditions-and-diseases/dysthymia
- Hopefully it's a good reason.
- Hopefully they caught it relatively early in its process
- I'm hopeful I can be in a place where I won't have to drive much.
- I know once I get out for a hike today I will feel better.
- I had hoped to be sleeping up in the mountains tonight.
- I need some ketamine or micro-dose
- I just remembered I have to finish signing up for Medi-Cal.I dont have health insurance at the end of this month.
- Hope today goes ok
- I have LOTS in progress.
- I hope there is something after this only so I can feel what its like not to exist here.
- Got it.First thing that comes to mind is not having better structure to my daySecond is holding myself accountable Third is not beating myself up when I don't stay on schedule and
- Anyway...It's going to take me a long time to recover from this experience.Experiencing 3 life traumas while trying to heal childhood trauma, no biggie
- So even if you see or say "you're healing ❤️‍🩹" I feel traumatized by the current situation and don't feel healing or progress Blinded by my own suffering
- You end up with what I have attached here.This is not me speaking.Its AI.I cloned my voice.Have to say my clone sounds better than me.
- Started MAX depression meds today on one of two I take for the dark side
- Emailed my therapist this today.
- Had an appointment for an ultrasound today but couldn't go because I dont have health insurance and I can't pay.if something bad happens I'm fucked
- the only thing that will help is me playing the stupid game of convincing myself that it's OK it'll be better tomorrow, but it never ever is.
- Afternoon would be better for me
- Should give me a much better picture of my project/work/mind landscape.
- It doesn't get any better than that.
- I just pulled into storage and hopefully can shoot shoot some darts for a bit it might help me calm the fuck down
- Don't get me wrong therapists are great because it's good to talk to people.
- But talking to therapist isn't going to solve my head I'm afraid.
- I gotta say, though minutes after unloading all that shit out of my head, I feel a lot better
- I hope they feel better soon
- Better than nothing.
- Better off goneNo more frustration and mental suffering from a life I was forced into
- They're about homeless services like healthcare and that kind of shit.I started crying because I'm so fucking ashamed of myself.
- Therapy tomorrow at 3
- I wish I could afford it, even if I'm perfect candidate I don't have working health insurance to cover it Would be completely out of pocket and that's not even knowing how it would turn out
- Doesn't do anything to make me feel any better just delays the inevitable suffering that's gonna come back because it's always there.
- Good therapy session.
- I'm certainly not healthy and not clean and my body has the welcome mad out for something.
- My hope is that someone will remember how hard I tried
- "I am so distant from the hope of myself..."damn, that hits hard
- I made good progress today.
- I was able to transfer money into Starbucks card with a few hops thru apps and I sit inside Starbucks with a coffee and feel a lot better.
- My hope is not only would it do HTML but it will do Swift so you could create mobile, apps, layouts, etc.
- Tonight was excellent Improvement.Used technique to look up with eyes closed take a deep breath and when I open my eyes I'm at my dartboard practicing.
- Going to target and hope newPrices will allow me to buy more and eat 🙏
- Hopefully I have some money for food at Target with their new prices
- And if I look inside my heart I still would wanna heal the relationship, believe it or notI can't even believe I'm saying that but what I know is it would know the same set up.
- Shit ain't getting better.
- My psychiatric nurse recommended this today when I brought up the topic of treatment by ketamine or psilocybin.
- I did speak to my psychiatric nurse this morning about my meds.
- It's better than you just dropping the piano from the sky on them.At least they have an inkling.
- Its a would so deep it never fully heals
- Or better yet hey bitch
- I feel better, but not 100%
- Please tell her I wanted so much to heal this and come back together.
- Realize I better shut the card off before like Apple comes in and takes 50 bucks or Adobe
- fortunately I'm close to Starbucks and McDonald's so hopefully I can get an order really quick and make enough money.
- And I made some progress on the setup of the GroupX site
- So my hopes are not up on this.
- Took me a few trips to get the elements lined up with the page, but I like this much better.
- I just hope to God that the pay for sitting around shows up.
- It's the right environment, it's the right space to be in to meet those people so I'm hopefulBy the Darts, but I don't feel the darts right now.
- Right, hopefully I don't have fight club tonight
- Made some progress yesterday and want to keep that going.
- Hopefully you hear from me tomorrow.
- Hopefully, I don't see anyone that I know.
- That is the line of just being permanently fucked up from this mentally like no matter what I do for the rest of my life I'm gonna be fucked up in the head from this And be unable to recover.
- I feel like it came over like I'm done and even if, even ifEven if I were to heal my mind, I'm still going to have to spend years rebuilding my life.
- Hope you have a good day.
- All I know is is for some damn reason I end up sticking around better be fucking good.
- It better make my fucking toes curl and sing hallelujah
- I'll try.Have a really hard headache from crying the first few hours of the day.Difficult to stay hopeful when you rejection is already waiting
- What I love is the better players in the league see my game progressing faster than anyone 😜Once I can finish solid, it's game on
- Liked "Hope you had a good time at darts 🎯 glad you went..."
- You know how I am tuned into every single atom in my body and I'll just say that things feel much better today
- I'm also now in The zone where the higher dosage meds are kicking in
- When you in my situation, there's a certain point where you lose thatToo many days in a row of lost hope.
- I get to spend all day tomorrow, filling out, government forms for health insurance and for the divorce
- What I was trying to say is that the past two days have been better than 99.99% of the days I've had in a long time
- Better than nothing I guess
- And that is precisely what I plan to ask the court for plus remunerative damages for my mental health and well-being.
- If they want my money, help me find a job, or better yet hire me.
- I got you need to go see someone.On the one hand, she said I don't wanna be your therapist.
- I'm gonna do that in about a half an hour and I hope to have it uploaded to you too 11 PM Pacific
- Feeling not well today — tired, challenging to focus, it's a weird mix.My depression meds are working.
- Time better spent IMO and my situation is still the same
- Sooner is better in case of any bugs 😊
- My hope is that I can have served her divorce papers next week.
- I mean, if I was brain, healthy, and employed, and Engaged imagine the shit I could create if I had the right environment and support.
- I want a do over and I can't get one.I wish Liz at least fucking pretended to try to care when I wanted to sit with the therapist and talk.
- I can't continue doing this much longer, so I'll file paperwork and hopefully get divorce finalized and then my rear fucking mirror
- I don't think it can be any better than it was.
- Hoping I can stay healthy otherwise.
- Some good actionable items to make the app better and he had some open questions for me and I had answers and it felt so really good too.
- Anyway, I'm hopeful.
- FYI--Have 3 site transfers in progresshttp://berchman.comhttp://bertmahoney.comhttp://Group-x.com
- I tried back healing frequency videos on YouTube and they seem to help for a little bit but not completely.
- I hope the FinalForms people arent trying to look 😟
- Only $6 but better than 0
- Deep Thoughts....by Jack Handy...I hope that I end up with a mansion and a yacht like Elmer J Fudd.
- so the reason I was told she wasn't filing, so you have health insurance, which I don't now, and she still has not filed kind of proves that to be a lie for her, not filing.
- I kept quiet about my mental health issues with Elizabeth.
- and shes unwilling to open up and heal with me
- no self belief, no self identity on top of an anxious cptsd mind that had not fully dealt with and healed its early trauma, and was traumatized again from rejection by my wife.
- Just done with therapy session with Laurie.
- Shows the court I made a good faith effort to heal my marriage before getting to this point.
- I have 5 days left on depression meds then cold turkey.I've taken action and have to wait now.
- But this one really hurt because I don't know how to better fit what a company is asking for primarily and secondarily
- hope ur good
- hope ur doing well.
- Still waiting for payment.Have 2 days left on one of my 3 depression meds.I can't get a refill.I'm not with Cerebral anymore, they were costing $85 a month so had to cancel.
- Cerebral is where I worked with the psych nurse over 18 months to get it dialed in and over this last month I've felt better, not great, but not crying everyday.
- hope
- GMWoke up sad 😔Feeling hopelessI was here a year ago, wtf?Giving up on hope and optimism.
- Storage payment coming up.Can't get refills on depression meds so I'm going cold turkey.
- Not that turning those in is gonna instantly turn my life around, but maybe I'll feel better when it's done.
- Hopefully it s not permanent
- All my meds together are $70$85 to Activate Cerebral for one month.
- I am hopeful that tomorrow my brain doesn't go tripping the fuck out like it did today and like it has a lot recently quite honestly.
- I hope it keeps her up at night disturbs her sleep.
- I hope it stresses her out, gives her anxiety, maybe even trigger some depression and all of that can last for months on her as far as I'm concerned.
- Hope Liz enjoys Vegas.
- However I have no idea how it will play out.Prepare for the worst Hope for the best
- Getting my meds.Maybe some print outs of paperwork
- I know Laurie, therapist, has said that to me more than once.
- Hey 👋 In better headspace Was as if a storm was rolling thru the brain.
- Does the job better than Glass because he you can't crush it or sit on it and break it so it holds the shape of the jointI think this could be fun.
- I'm on a lot of meds and I shouldn't be feeling this way.
- K, have to spend time trying to find a toilet to start the day, and hope I don't shit my pants before I find one
- "stick around, things will get better"Sticking around isnt the problemProof that things will get better is
- when you feel no progress...you start to question why the fuck you're doing it.
- it makes things feel hopeless when you dont see or feel any progress or movement
- Hope he's ok
- What I hope it's not is some kind of aging thing.OK, hope everything's all right.
- I really do hope everything is OK and that you and all the ladies in your life are good
- Cant afford to pay a lawyer to look at them.So, I guess I just submit them and hope for hte fucking best?
- hope camping was good
- It would be better if no one had to deal with this bullshit I'm generating, especially you.
- I'll spend the night up there at the park and then hopefully can dash enough to get money to charge.Ojai is in the 90s every day so I dont want to stay up there.
- At home ketamine therapy
- I want to do ketamine.
- I really wanna make it happen because I know it will flip a switch for me and likely improve at least my mindset by potentially exponential factors
- I can always double back improve SCO improve aesthetic and design etc.
- And, hopefully this is the last thing I share before I takeoff to walk the beach and get some exercise.
- Which makes me feel a lot better.
- I it's like done and dusted and like the judge has signed off on whatever the deal is going to be and everybody knows what's up I think I'll be better then
- Hope things are good there.
- Had therapy today.Also something good happened.
- I'm hopeful that today will not be as mentally torturous as yesterday was
- I've lost hope.
- Obviously the more risk reduction the better.
- It's hard to do basic self-care because I don't want to; because why bother?There is no future, hope, or optimism—I've lost all that; you lose it.
- Every day, I wake up and go through the day only to have it show me there is no hope.
- I was under the impression I was going to be on healthcare until I have a job.
- So since i'm not on your healthcare anymore and you aren't moving on the filing then I did.I can't wait around.
- Or, is that I I have a condition on my side of any agreement to reconcile if I'm not doing alcohol in the weed etc.We better be fucking a lot.
- So I gotta I can get on a charger soon and hope that toggling the weight is will work and keep me on the dash
- I don't feel any better my back still hurts my mood hasn't improved I've had a couple of days of fucking absolute head popping bullshit
- Anyhow yes I would definitely do ketamine.
- I mean the only way I get worse is if I kill myself but then I get better because then I don't have to deal with the bullshit anymore but then everybody else isn't better
- You mean going in to a therapy session and taking the ketamine there and doing whatever therapy we are supposed to do
- I highly doubt it's gonna be like I am going to develop a ketamine habit 🤣🤣🤣
- If you google lucid life ketamine Santa Barbara they probably will come up.
- If you type in ketamine depression treatment and then the name of the city or region you're in you'll get results for people that do it, meaning provide therapeutic application
- I think once I communicate this I will feel a whole lot better.
- I hope you can see/understand my frustration with having to output a shit-ton of effort and energy to get out of this.
- Hopefully I can get tasker working cant get it to install on phone
- Thomas J Frank (Notion Wizard) and Tiago Forte (PARA Method)I honestly feel better knowing all my shit is in there.Projects, Personal, Private, etc.
- I'm getting much better at this particular skill
- And hopefully don't have their ageism hats on
- I don't wanna fucking see her so she better not be thereShe got her way during the marriage and I'm gonna get my fucking way after the marriage.
- I read an article that gave me hope (which is weird because I tend to live in logic not hopeful hearts)Here's the article.
- I'm been doing some deep healing work for a while now, well over 1000 days of meditation.
- I didn't know how to communicate some basic things to you because I simply did not have the skills.Why am I sharing this?Because I wan't you to know that I'm working hard at being better.
- No hope no purpose
- Thanks for letting me shit in the text thread 💩I'm going thru alot right inside the head, I think its progress, we'll see.
- She told me she wasn't filing because I didn't have a job or health insurance.
- I have been ready and willing to talk and heal and resolve anything.
- I mean I've got her quote from therapy, "I decided to let it happen" when you decide to let something happen you are giving permission.I took nothing she gave permissionend of fucking story
- Even if that looks like me living somewhere not with her, but we are going to therapy, and maybe on small dates where we simply go to dinner relax and try to talk and get our relationship back.
- Why bother?Nothing gets betterNothing changes
- Hope Willows arm is ok
- K Hope u have a good day 👍Bye
- if we sit down and talk and spend some fucking time digging through this one or two things is gonna happen we're either gonna realize we can heal, or we realize it ain't gonna work.
- I hope you can see that.
- New case study layout is VERY good.So much better where this is headed.
- Meditate at the ocean in the middle of the day with the sun I think will be betterMy friend Sherry who I think you remember is letting me use her shower.
- Dashing is better down there
- The thing is I just don't know if she's heard me that healing this is an option if she wants it.
- I hope to God I'm not going into a big dip
- Yes I'm lucid and great moments of insight and growth and progress But that ain't shit reallyDoesn't matter Nothings matters
- In the trash to Goodwill And hopefully not everything is ruined and some I can have.
- I just realized Elizabeth's email to me said she hopes that we can be amicable etc.
- I know I did everything with in my power and abilities to try to heal the relationship.
- Yet even in doing that you broke promises to me on the path to healing.why you're broke your promises I will never know.
- That's just part of healing for me I can't hold onto some shit.
- I've been in this situation long enough now that I've kind of got 1 foot in the giving up all hope bucket
- I've been thru alot and hope 🙏🏽 something, anything I'm thinking about will become real for me.Truly manifest it.
- living is miserableExisting for more of this?No thanks.Nearly atPpoint where im going to stop doing anything to better the situation.Wasted energy and effort.
- I don't think it's good or healthy
- I may be treatment resistant.In other words current therapy don't work for me.
- Only 3 case studies, much shorter experience on the homepage and looks better IMOLMK
- My first amendment right of self expression and part of the healing process of being mentally tortured by her like i am NOW BEING FUCKING HOMELESS
- She sat there Stoic is fucking hell and said about three words anytime she was asked something.She gave no fucking tries healing so fuck her
- Dude you better wait for fucking icebergs in the Sahara that ain't happening
- hey, I need to try ketamine.I can't keep fighting myself everyday to get anything done.Let alone feel like shit about myself, which getting nothing done is fuel to the fire of worthlessness
- Hope u have a good day
- At this point I want to put my apple wired headphones into the phone so I can hear clearly, plus the microphone is better.
- I hope you have a good day today and are doing something fun.
- K, hope u have good day 😊🙏
- Unfortunately my day has gotten worse not better.
- Usually the days get better the longer I get into them but not this one it's turning worse
- They worked better, and delivered more, than I ever could have hoped.
- Until some of these things are behind me or better managed I'm afraid I'm stuck in life.
- I am hopeful that the one hour of dashing I have left today will get me perhaps two orders for 10 bucks each and then I have enough to get me runway to wake up back in this mess tomorrow morning
- I hate to think that having a place to live and having a job with pay me to have resources to live is somehow going to "make me happy"Is that placing false hope in something that may not happen?
- Hoping tomorrow is better.However, if im to use previous experience to dictate we know what's gonna happen tomorrow, more of the same
- I know she was talking with her therapist.My hunch is therapist said let him go.
- —email from my teacher this morning.One way to find forgivenessis to remember that if we or others knew better, we would have done better.
- I'm pretty god damn sure Ketamine would straighten me the fuck out.And I know why.
- hopelessness is trying to move in
- These are all the questions in my head and everything's gonna fall into place tonight today.I hope that helps illustrate how I can't really plan for the future let alone tomorrow
- Hopeful I can find myself with a bill or two paid by the EOD.
- They always showed three shots in progression.
- This version is better
- End of Seth Godins email today...If you're not regularly getting better at your digital toolbox, you're actually getting worse.
- I hope you've been well and everything is going smoothly with Hygenix!I am following up on our discussion the week before last about the Marketing Specialist position you're hiring for.
- —Hi Sam,I hope all is well.I'm following up on our discussion about the Marketing Specialist role.
- I hope Jenica is.
- At least that's my hope.
- Better to be delightfully suprised and feeling good, than getting really hopeful and excited only to have your balloons popped.
- but emotionally its far less a speed bump for me when it doesnt go as hoped
- I would need to drive down into the zone and HOPE they are so busy they open up.
- I feel better now with the sleep and earung
- —Hope u had a good day.Im done for tonight.Have an art idea i may try.Simple thing on computerOtherwise.
- On lots of depression meds and still depressed.
- --better off dead
- I would love to try ketamine therapy.However, out here to pay for supervision would likely take the entire $2k for medical supervision, person with proper training, etc.
- https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/symptoms/25155-anhedonia
- I hope I can drive down later today because I have an 8 AM – scheduled for tomorrow morning in Ventura and if I don't get thereOh well
- Days u dont make 20 u go with less food or dont charge in hope you don't blow the battery until the next day trying to get 10 bucks to charge
- The rest of the year the recovering.
- And I hope they will
- Better than the street.@Starbucks now.3 priorities today:1.
- Spend time going thru stuff to downsize.hopefully my brain can do that
- 🏨 hopefully this week I wi..."
- —I said it years ago the thought is never left my mind and I will say it again BetterOffDead
- —GM.Hope Monday is OK for you.Some thoughts from this morning that I texted Laurie.
- It had better for $3.99
- Liked "Let's see your progress at end of day and arrival..."
- earlier is better 😊
- Hopefully I'll catch you before your super busy.
- First of Mental Health Poster Designs
- If it make 10% of the ppl who try feel better, I want to try.
- Felt better this morning until seeing that email.It fucked with my head.'
- -BetterOffDead
- Check out this audio from The Pattern.https://open.thepattern.com/deeplink/posts/XYMVD_jnSxGRKQDm7DlDAg/audio/chapter/1?origin=dt_cmsI am the wounded healer apparently
- I'm down to my last 150 mg of depression meds.
- Unemployed and just moved to a new state, no health insurance in six months and no means to pay.
- Not planning on going off the meds
- that's the thing about depression meds.
- working on my mental health poster ideas.
- just got meds renewed online with Amazon Pharmacy
- interesting that I tapered my med (broke them up) and I feel better today and havent taken any at all
- Don't feel great ( mental health aside )
- Pushing with numb limbs and spiritTo a place no one knowsOther than saying it will get better.Really?
- Ugh...Still waiting for meds.Fuck.Week of cold turkeyHad 5 hours of dashing had yo give up today.
- Amazon has lost my meds
- —Honestly felt better in CA even tho I was stressed I wasnt this isolated and depressed.At least i could go sit by the ocean, that helped.Going to sit in a basement all winter.
- But I've also made no money because the meds made my head non-functional.
- hope work is good.About to go take a nap.
- Unsure if its meds or brain just taking it up a few notches on me.
- I've honestly yet to feel loose or relaxed.My entire body is so tight I literally feel pain.No healthcare, no money, no care.Honesltly.....
- —hope the hotel wasnt too bad
- Even betterWALK 1.5 miles to find the place u targeted closed early 2 hours ago today because why not?
- Meds fiasco still not over.
- I have a giant catalog of amazing photos.I have my mental health poster series I want to finish.Been working on digital paintings of Twin Peaks, The Chief, and the Topas.
- Guess that's better than it coming to me in the middle of January 🤣🤣🤣
- And I need to adjust the color on that one and crop it better.
- I really hope you feel better.
- So many ppl are better than me at those two things.But not the comms
- Hola, how are you?You feeling any better?
- Feel a little better.
- And the anxiety is festering and growing because of the unknown, NO progress, and time ticking away.
- K talk mañanaLet u know how meds go
- others in progress.
- I have a meeting next week to talk with someone about coaching and some group therapy things.
- Making progress and getting them done.I'll add outlines so you can see where the edges of the paper is.
- Hope ur doing well 😊And better than me.
- i know ur better than me of course
- I was thinking that if I put a store online and go FULL public with my mental health status, I should actually pursue a mental health disability from a psychiatrist or psychologist.
- Until I can get my mind in a better place Im CAUTIOUS.
- https://seths.blog/2024/12/better-at-being-better/
- Hopefully I can sell and then have money to update some things.
- "is everyone happy with the tune I'm playing?" I hope so.
- hopefully get back to me asap.
- Hopefully that can happen soon.
- The clouds have moved in and waiting to see what happens with brain weather the rest of the day.Either stays where I'm at, I feel better, or I feel worse.
- Otherwise just taking up space and resources someone else could likely put to better use.ps.
- Going back to bed.Nothing to do, and better off away from ppl
- So, I'm hopeful the two of us can figure it out.
- ketamine treatment in Colorado:
- If Santa can bring me a ketamine kit that would be great.
- Found 3 facilities that do in-person ketamine treatments.
- One does IV and has higher success rates because they tailor to the case, not a blanket approach which is what at home therapy is like.
- —Hi, hope all is well.Had a nice dinner here.
- Headed to coffee shop shortly to put more hours into bertforsale and the mental health push on social media today and all week thru New Years.
- k, now back to the bert.forsale already in progress.
- Hopefully next work i publish i can document
- https://bert.forsale/a-couple-hours-left-of-mental-health-2024/
- Hope ur good.And hope kids are feeling better
- My bet is they're not going to let me leave until they are "satisfied Im better" however that is defined.Thinking if I end up being detained against my will, game over.
- And I cant think about things coming in time, because I dont know if they will and why get hopes up only to have them crushed?anytime i get hope or optimisim i get crushed.
- Everyone there was working to help you feel better.I would go back if I needed it
- Just like the dogs, no judgement on love—it was so nice to see.It made me want to do same thing sometime down road.Train a dog to be a therapy dog and go into hospitals like that.
- So Im making great negative progress today.
- Nothing works so no progress on store, art, or advertisingUniverse telling me this is NOT what I should be doing?!?Confused, stresses, and anxiety in my heartspaceYay me!
- No meds to deal with it so I have to just let it fuck me up until its done.😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡
- No wonder I have lost hope and optimism
- Hey,Imagine ur headed to work.Never heard about what you wanted done at your house.Day 2 stuck in basement.Good times for mental health!so triggered from processing email.
- ketamine fell on deaf ears
- and ppl have to keep going back for more, because its only temporary.Just give me the GODAMN KETAMINE NOSESPRAY and let me try it.
- Same meds, same shit different day.Instead of getting better Im FAR more isolated in a basement 23 hours a day thru no fault of my own.I'd rather depressed and miserable be in California.
- I have a therapy session at 3 o'clock at the mental health partners
- Hi, how long will it take you think?I have a 3pm therapy appt and could do it before but want to make sure I have enough time
- I never get, or feel better so I can feel alive and not depressed.And no one can help me get better in short order.I cant get ketamine because I'm too poor.
- depression off the hook tonight.I had high hopes of publishing at least the social media notices about the Anxiety poster.
- https://www.klarisana.com/locations/ketamine-treatment-longmont/
- Mind aint coming backIm on 2 of the best modern depression meds at max dosage and Im still depressed and having suicide in my head at least once a day.
- I think the DBT therapy will help me with this because it's behavior based on outside stimuli
- Mental Health - currently fluctuates with the weather, and still not 100% managed, and in check to allow me unfettered investement of available time into the next bullet points
- I am working on new meds, DBT therapy.
- So I document and share building a platform to sell my mental health awareness artwork — which is in and of itself AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT BRAND from Bert, the webguy....
- The minute the scans done a machine can give you a better diagnosis, and instantly.I can see exactly this issue playing out with doctors not wanting to relinquish control of that process
- You remember how good he was at soccer.He had one knee replaced, and not sure about the other...Anyhow I digress..So injury/surgery/physical therapy...how much time you looking at?
- Or should I go bag groceries?"What sort of progress?
- https://seths.blog/2025/01/what-sort-of-progress/
- After that I'll have a better idea about restaurant idea"
- Good progress on my project
- About to go online and try distraction.Therapy is on Wednesday
- Thoroughly convinced i have no hope of ever feeling happy and content for even 24 hours in whatever time I have left.Im just done here.Thats how I feel
- had first therapy session today.
- Hope all is ok
- Hola!Hope ur doing as best ya can with ur leg.
- Wishing you speedy recovery!
- hope ur feeling good.
- imagine you got good pain meds 😊
- Liked "I guess the was n pain in recovery and the gave me meds.
- this is what I sent:Hi, hope this finds you well.
- Is it better to do it by card or by the account numbers
- hola, hope ur pain is low levels today.
- I'm discovering that although I may feel like I am better, and that is true.
- I think its better than what I have.I'm still going to have case studies, just not like that.
- hola, hope ur feeling less pain and better today.Imagine things are still inflamed.I hope ur feeling better than I imagine.
- I had medication check in in therapy session this morning, and I shared that things had been getting better.That was until I got Elizabeth's email.
- Not sure about hope.Agree with second line.Im noticing more and more how much living in car and the nearly 2 years of isolation have impacted me.
- These will get better in terms of audio quality and production I'm just winging it right now
- If you're fit and healthy, take a day to go surfing.
- hope you're feeling better
- Getting SMARTER and better at this.Finding efficiencies.
- —Had a productive therapy session today.
- Have a new framework from therapy sessions.Called "Internal Family Systems" or IFS for short.Its based in Systems Thinking which is something I'm very familiar with from software.
- Went to pickup meds yesterday, and not there.My nurse met me over a week ago telling me my refill woulf be waiting for me.
- I drove out here cause I thought I was gonna get ketamine treatment but here I am 4 1/2 five months later still dicking around
- My psychiatric nurse at the mental health partners.
- NoneNo progress
- Got meds.Feel numb to outside world.Dissociated and angry
- Sorry to hear that.Hope you were ok.
- Hope you feel better😁
- They recognize the toll it takes on their sanity and mental health.Impact of Divorce: The ongoing divorce is a source of sadness and emotional strain.
- While they sometimes show moments of resilience and a desire to improve their situation, the overwhelming presence of negative emotions suggests a need for significant support and change.
- I hope u r ok.
- hope ur resting ur leg 😊
- Sooner im dead and gone from this existense the better
- I mean last week I felt no better than I did the day I fucking arrived and I've been here 6 months
- —GmHope ur feeling better.About to go thru motions.Coffee, job hunting, and pushing thru another day depressed.
- and message regarding mental health "
- Find a reliable Ketamine program with in person guided sessions then relay the information to me."
- GmNot a great start today.Missed my therapy appt.
- But it just drags out getting betterSucks
- Whats a few more days when were aleady years in?It's like the idea that one day I'm gonna wake up in my life is gonna suddenly be better.That day is never coming.
- I hope ur around after Im dead.Someone has to let everyone know that I tried
- Hola!, imagine you are there by now.I hope you made it safely.
- Hope ur trip goes well
- Is she better than me fuck no
- I THINK SIMPLER IS BETTER.
- Hope ur day is going ok.
- Last thing you want is the holidays at the end of the year to arrive and your leg doesn't feel fully healed.
- Heal so u dont need a cane or god forbid a walker
- I am on 2 top depression meds, at maximum dosages for 3 months now.
- I do have a high school friend who contacted me about a role with Chase Corporation—making connections this week, so hopeful I'll at least get an interview.
- here is what I did send:hi Liz,Hope you are well.
- Gm Hope ur day is going well
- It's far better than being awake and living it
- Because I will never feel better.Thats my reality.Every day the sameNever getting better
- Maybe the meds are numbing me out enuf.
- Liz emailed me back on MSA and increased cash offer to $80k.Its being pitched as a better deal that what I am saying.Anyhow, check the emails.thankns!!!!
- hope you have a chance to watch at least the clip above.
- It's calm, neutral, and steady—like I hope I've been for you.I'm honored to be your friend on this journey.
- —Big picture.Feeling better about this.
- I stumbled across a GPT tonight that helps you create a faceless YouTube channel.And I went ahead and did that, and it's really damn good It's better than all the other things I've got maybe combined
- There is nothing better at fucking u over than ur own mind.Fact.
- About losing direction and hope.About imagining that we have let ourselves and everyone down.But it is also a book about getting better.
- About regaining the thread, rediscovering meaning and finding a way back to connection and joy.We are all on our own journey towards recovery.
- this therapist does GREAT acting out behaviors.
- dont know what I was just looped into, but I hope to god something awful is not happening
- Just got done with therapy appointment and it was very good
- Sick of living thru another week and weekend with no hope.
- Going to take a nap and pass some of this depression away hopefully.
- fucked up mental healthI sit alone in a basement.Meanwhile in an apartment in Florence and art classes......
- I hope u are doing ok
- 🎙️🚶‍♂️🖤🌙Take care of that healing body and spirit, brother.You're walking into your next chapter — literally.
- — hope ur doing ok
- Another thought.Will ketamine cutoff my ability to feel the dark side ever again?
- weighty topics.Hopefully wont turn people off
- —FYI, I am going to blog about ketamine experience too.
- She's literally said many of these things.Makes me sad because we could have healed together.How amazing that would have been.🥲
- Its therapy
- Massage therapy and accupuncture DAILY for a month.I have chronic muscle tension and it's either that or injecting muscle relaxers directly into my neck
- Its depression saying fuck you to me per usual.Just back from therapy session too.
- u probably see that I've started a doc to prep for my ketamine sessions.
- thanks for the 👍.hope the horoscope wasnt triggering
- —"Ketamine Khronicles"is already in progressHave music for my listening,And topics to focus on.Will share Notion doc soon for you to see.
- ANyhow, have been unable to make progress on a client project — beating myself up over it, and going to leave coffeeshop after getting nothign done past 2 hours.
- been working on my ketamine prep.
- finishing up hubermans ketamine video.
- he was around in the early days and talked about how they discovered ketamines dissociative affects
- —I'll record videos tomorrow for Ketamine Khronicles
- Hope ur Sunday is good.
- Ketamine That's what it means
- I just want to feel better and I cant take this shit
- Headed into therapyStill have no idea why Im here other than pushing bullshit uphill all day
- Unfortunately my therapist was sick today.
- made good progress on my slideshow redesign today.Google Slides has some limitations and need to see if there are plugins that can help
- Better to be blind to it IMO, and not have to suffer the realization
- took shower, feel a tiny bit better.
- Fortunately a better day emotionally, and slightly productive.
- Marginal improvements, but nothing that gets me where I prefer to be.I only see futures I want no part of, and nothing remotely exuding anything appealing.I watch another weekend piss away.
- Hopelessness is high now having to answer brothers textsThose are triggering to read
- Talked to Derick Perry and caught up for an hour today.Hes interested in the ketamine experience.
- Had therapy this am.Very good session.
- So surgically removed or less invasive injections.And my next ketamine appointment is tomorrow 10:45 AMSetting up my playlist and intention/focus for tomorrow
- In consideration for the Ketamine Playlist.
- going to do sound bath and chakra frequencies today.Healing Vibrations is a YT channel I visit often, and Tyler (the bowl master) has a Spotify channel too.I think Friday I'll do sitar/tabla/flute.
- https://www.youtube.com/@HealingVibrations
- I splurged on a six dollar mug at target I don't know why it looks like it's glowing maybe it's the ketamine
- What if during one of my ketamine sessions I put my wireless mic on me and I can talk about what I'm experiencing and actually recorded on audio.
- What is awesome is I have Maggie the Reiki master scheduled for right after my ketamine session.
- One of which will be for you I imagine and also work on the ketamine chronicles.I have all the raw audio and video it's a matter of slicing and dicing.
- Back in basement.2/5 leg injections done.3/6 ketamines done9am Special K11am Reiki with Maggie (trees person, she also walks scottie.Saw her last weekend.
- I could feel the change walking out.She imagines the Ketamine will keep me "open" and allow her to do more effective energy work.
- Ketamine Kit 4 tomorrow
- Its draining Best way to put it.It is if the ketamine experience is making me more susceptible to energy vampires
- 3x I was asked if I felt better
- Better than none.
- Ketamine isnt ready yet.Its going on that channel, I need to do production.I have all the content.Been letting brain chill rather than push like hell.
- not sure if its ketamine or a daydreamwho caresall of this will be over some day
- Just had spontaneous crying.Time traveling back before this divorce thing.With nothing but more shit days ahead, its stupid to hope.
- —Be at ketamine in an hour.Then back here in basement for the day.I'll likely feel ok today and tomorrow.
- DoooooodThis is not kosher.Losing, if not already, hope of being free of this.Ur mom is picking me up.
- Again.Better life thru chemistryStill requires a life worth returning toI don't have that, so I go right back in my hole.There is NOTHING I look forward to except being unconscious
- Having an afternoon where my anxiety is way high.I can feel my entire nervous system shaking inside.I didnt have this after ketamine treatments.It made my internal nervous vigilance shut off.
- FIrst tho is to figure out how to keep on ketamine.
- Ketamine thing might be the way to kick it off.
- Working to get trees video online for a destination.And getting the slide project out to my client for, hopefully, final approval.
- This afternoons goal.Tonight is prep for ketamine at 9am tomorrow.Im hopeful to have-and highly prefer-the full experience
- Headed to coffee shop and laptop for a few hours.Work on my Ketamine Khronicles
- And there's an interesting physical sensation going in and coming out of the ketamine experience that I'm finally tuned to, because I'm not overwhelmed with just doing it
- Just out of the loop.Been high on ketamine for a few weeks now.A little distracted.
- I've had moments in the car, in a parking lot, like the market or Target — and flashback to living in a car I hope to keep as long as Im able.
- —Hope the drive is going ok.Should be getting close
- Only reply more better is...OK
- The way and the speed of progress signals I've got MANY MORE months of isolation.
- Back inside my head I go.Have a good day.I sense that you guys are all off on some kind of adventure today Hope it's fun
- —GMhope ur day has started off better than mine
- Texted ur mom back.I have ketamine on Friday @11amSeeing if Tree or Don can drop-off/pickup.
- Im working to let myself rest and heal WITHOUT FEELING GUILTY OR WRONG OR STUPIDIts hard to heal when thats what u get sitting still without trying.The "voice" is there to remind u ur shit.
- and I know the harder I hold onto that the more it hurtsI'm simply sick of waking up and doing this shit every daystill directionless, still feel very lost and NOT healed
- by the way my online therapy session was really good, affirming and integrative
- —Hola, I hope you had a productive day with the guys you had helping I know you had a lot of shit to do.
- Figured since last day.Headed to Ketamine in 5.Will be laying low until dizziness wears off.
- No idea if u read my stuffIm back on tur darkside today after ketamine.
- Planning on July 24-25 As take off to NY dateMy next ketamine appt is 23rd this month.
- I'd like to add you as my recovery contact.
- If you accept, you'll be able to help me recover my data and regain access to my account.
- not sure if you heard from your mom or tree, but I pissed her off on the drive back from ketamine on MondayI shut down when I got back and slept until Tuesday at 1pm-yesterday.
- Body health, not mind.Simply tired of being alive
- Only here for ketamine on 23rd then Im leaving
- If I had known Id still be in this place last summer I would have tapped out.I held on to a brainwashed hope that something will happen.
- I refuse to participate in the world until I feel far better
- The ketamine is working it's just iceberg slow
- I just drove by your house on my way back from therapy and everything's looking OK
- Sucks to think ur doing work and making progress, but not so fast...
- no home, job, income, and peak mental health issues.perfect fucking storm
- -I got an insight at therapy today that took me over 50 years to figure out
- I got alot from therapy session today.
- by the way I hope the travels been going well with the trailer and vacation has been enjoyable and your leg has been cooperating
- I cant make progress when shit goes down
- Take someone who's just started healing from knee surgery and tell them they're OK and just start walking.Tell them its all in their head.
- Thats part of what told me to get back here—his health is not good from any angle, it can be better but its HIS CHOICE.
- Honestly, wouldve been better to tap out last summer after Jenica.
- Hola, hope ur wellHaving a damn time trying to ground myself here.I want to leave, or at least be in my own place.
- My Colorado health insurance is cancelled now.
- It will be a while until I have a therapist, etc.
- just spent 15 mins talking in circles with my mom answering her questions as to why I dont already have a therapist and ketamine, and doctors, etc.
- on an email to the lady listed for Saratoga County Mental Health Adult Coordination.You can read what I sent.
- —Better off Dead.Have a Tuesday.
- —FYI, got my health insurance packet in the mail today — CDPHP based in Latham.So I can now pick a primary care doc, and find out how to get ketamine going again.
- And find a therapist — that one will be tricky.I dislike having to retell my entire catalog of trauma.
- With exception of ketamine treatments, and even those didnt go right