# Anxiety & Panic — Quotations

- sick of worry
- had a father of a tryout player drop dead of a heart attack one week ago today.
- and take a deep breath
- I come across as constantly anxious 😩.
- What I would consider calm would likely be anxiety for someone else
- so, big picture I'm feeling stressed and anxious.
- I wake up anxious, worried and stressed every single day.
- Can't remember the last time I woke up not already worrying about something or feeling bad about something
- Woke up groggy, and mind went to worrying as usual.
- Don't remember a morning where I've not woken up and gone to worry, anxiety, shame in a long, long time.
- I'm trying to do some work today, but anxiety is getting in the way.
- I feel like this whole past year has been one large anxiety attack.
- All I can say to that is "I think so" mainly because fear and anxiety have dominated the scene for me for so long.
- 2018 for me was the year of anxiety, doubt, and being tired.
- man, another day waking up with anxiety and self-criticism.
- I awoke with a great deal of anxiety, and it was trying hard to derail me
- And high anxiety about future
- Like getting hit with a panic attack, but with tears and emotions
- yes, I have an app on my phone, Simple Habit, that presents many 5-10 min meditations on a wide variety of topics, overthinking, anxiety, stress, etc.
- my anxiety about my upcoming birthday has already started :-\
- my worry and anxiety is interfering with my ability to focus and work.
- Struggling with anxiety big time today
- and breathing
- will be outside, breathing, moving, etc.
- Out of breath and sweating like a pig
- Feeling anxious and nervous.
- Been struggling with worry and it can be debilitating at times
- been reading alot about ppl microdosing for depression and anxiety.
- Needless to say that my anxiety is very high.
- Lack of confidence, stress about many, many things, lack of sleep, anxiety and depression mood swings.
- Each year I have more anxiety around this time, especially the day of.
- Levels are very high and feeling lots of anxiety to deliver
- 20 years of this and I'm still anxious about her departure.
- I'm not sure what the underlying anxiety is there maybe abandonment?
- You know, over time I can see how shifting perspective and such helps, but I find myself still ‘stuck', ie, depressed and anxiety rattled.
- I cannot remember a day in the past any number of years where I've not felt depressed, anxious, negative towards myself in someway.
- Worry, anxiety about future.
- Another morning of bad anxiety.
- I see you're disciplining my kids, my wife, my coworkers and I in a constant state of panic and fear that I'm going to let people down, it gets fucking annoying after a while
- have a weird mix of anxiety, fear, and fatigue.
- Perhaps it's just high levels of anxiety :-)
- And I get derailed with anxiety
- Makes me sad to think about how much anxiety has limited me
- What to do with the fellow sitting in the corner gnashing his teeth, and filled with anxiety and dread?
- For me I just want to wake up without feeling nervous/anxious each day about the day ahead
- yeah, medical stuff makes me anxious on some level—some more than others
- My anxiety and depression have been creeping up on me
- Darragh's team won 1 to 0 and I was very tightly contested match
- My stress levels are very high, and then I start worrying about health.
- And makes me worry about my own kids in public school
- She doesn't tell you to lie down, start breathing, etc.
- For me I lie down with headphones, close my eyes, breathe slowly and listen.
- I'm dealing with a 19-year-old crippled with anxiety and panic can't go into work because of it.
- Needless to say but I'm anxious about all this.
- Anxiety is high.
- me: eat, sleep, work, worry, rest, repeat
- brings on the Anxiety, my OLD friend :-)
- Laughed at "Travel with the kiddos is both fun and anxiety inducing"
- Just more stress and anxiety
- I can't go over there and be true to me, and be open hearted
- Thanks for reminding me about the heart
- I'm listening to Heart Minded by Sarah Blondin, narrated by Sarah Blondin on my Audible app.
- When young I hid my heart far, far away because of the constant fear of punishment (verbal and/or physical) at the hands of my father.
- Have a few A+L things I'm doing, and of course trying to practice some kind of self care instead of being anxious and stressed all day
- waves of fear, anxiety, shame, guilt, grief and despair.feeling awful, but if I remember correctly its just a feeling and hopefully it will pass
- also, lots of language about "us" in future tense.
- thought he was going to be like them.passed that anxiety on to me
- I'm learning to unplug from anxiety brain knee-jerking emotions running my life.
- Since doing EMDR I've had days where my entire being is not being run by anticipatory anxiety—trying to get everything in its right place so as to not create ripples on the pond of life.
- In fact I find it REALLY interesting not to feel fear/panic AT ALL.
- the big worry is them getting hurt in some way they cant get help
- That combined with anxiety of going to NY is making today triggering beyond belief.The hurt is hard, and feels like your skin is turned inside out and all your nerves are exposed
- Incredibly depressing sadness to start the day, anxiety travel all day long, capped with seeing parents at the end of the day which has its own special anxiety.
- I'm smile and say "don't worry, once I get going the tears come and I ride the wave all the way into shore"
- how about that one dude who got out his car and was nearly killed by car coming his way....holy heart attack
- Don't worry I'm likely already berating myself about what you're thinking.
- Need it to disarm the fear and worry, and deepen my ability to stay calm continuously
- It breaks my heart.I wept then as I do now writing this.Deep remorse for what happened.
- Feeling lost, but not panicked
- Shoe, not show.Focusing on calm, but anxiety of unknowns is chewing on my nerves.Breathe in, I'm aware of my in breathBreathe out, I'm aware of my out breath
- I was very emotional and at times could only get words out in between breathing spaces.
- my heart is so broken
- I broke my heart by breaking hers.I'm so sad.
- Intense crying and sadness, followed by sniffles and hyperventilation until I catch my breath.Calm for maybe 30-60s and it starts all over again.
- I've NEVER felt such heartache and pain inside.Been feeling awful for a long time, YEARS, and finally feeling like Im beginning to get my feet under me, and no
- Then I have some random thought and trigger here and anxiety and uncertainty thoughts that my whole life is going to blow up on me, I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop.
- my anxiety is high and sun
- I'm getting much better at avoiding any meaning, but when it's this close to your heart it's incredibly challenging not to get sucked in
- Feels like this is never getting better ❤️‍🩹 it breaks my fucking heart to contemplate that.
- Also, enjoy your vacation, don't worry about me I'm OK 😆
- A lot of feeling my heart breaking.I just watched Liz walk out of the house for the New Year's banquet looking beautiful, and paid her complement and got a mumbled "thanks,".
- I was too wrapped up in fear and anxiety in the moment to be present to all the good fortune and blessings I had
- Super stressed and my body is tight.
- After also be neurotic anxiety base paranoid thinking to
- And even that bit of progress on a job lead and I still feel this suffering in my heart.
- and it makes you feel shame, guilt, and the heaviest fucking heart you've ever had (literally makes me start to hyperventilate)
- If the rules were flipped I wouldn't know what to say so don't worry
- https://panic.com/transmit/
- https://panic.com/sync/
- Panic is a solid software company
- spent all morning meditating and using tools to try and loosen up my neck.Over the past month I've started to develop bad neck / upper back tightness and nerve pinching.Stress, poor sleep, etc.
- think it might be a HARD CORE panic attack
- Opens the heart.
- And that is certainly something that would've sent me off into clear anxiety and frustration before
- Splitting headache all day, dizzy, irregular heartbeat, all.kinds of fun.
- Liked "I just realized that when I Heart ❤️ comments I'm sending love and positive energy your way.
- Again I'm in a beautiful romantic place and I have a boot on my heart 💔
- Doesn't have the heart to throw me on the street right now, but if I were employed I'd be out.
- So I've lived an entire year of my life incredibly depressed and anxious and have had my worst nightmare and worst fear come to be real
- Anyhow that was easily 10 years ago and from that moment I definitely started holding back and sharing about all my anxiety and depressive thinking with Liz
- Not telling me this and letting me continue to walk around anxious and depressed about possibilities
- Hello, my mind has been racing all morning.
- I was just thinking that it really breaks my heart that she would think I would do that to her.
- Truly stabs me right in the heart
- Likely the year talking with her therapist validating her story and emotions—locking it in airtight like a brainwashing.When I look, I dont see an open mind or an open heart.
- I'm trying to use my heart to hold my sadness rather than letting it sit in my mind and generate feelings.
- Yes, when I feel the sadness in my heart it's somewhat meditative, and compassionate.
- getting to this point has been exhausting, stressful, and riddled with anxiety, guilt, and shame.
- Liked "Deep breaths "
- Nothing is going to change the way I want, and my heart is broken HARD
- Heartbreak and punishment of failing at love
- I walk by this often and my heart hurts when I do.
- Heart break and suffering are still with me.
- Liz has never known me other than diss regulated ain't mostly anxious with the sprinkling of depression, Bert, then I went massive depressive disorder with alcoholism and drug use to self medicate.
- The big question I have is why is she unwilling to open up her heart to me?
- OK, maybe not open up her heart, but open up and be vulnerable and be willing to talk this out so we can understand each other.
- "Give your questions time to breathe, and the answers will find you." Jeff Foster
- Reflect on how much useful energy you have spent on fear and worry.
- I'm getting to the point where I just feel a big "fuck you heartless motherfucker." I think and feel that but I won't express it.
- Breaks my fucking heart to have to go through this, but I will with my best fuck your face on.
- Its YOU BROKE MY FUCKING HEART time
- I have seen your kindness and warm heart, and all the work you've done in the past 2 years getting to a better place.
- That's work she needs to do on herself.I also know 2 other things.She is incredibly stubborn.She will hold out to save face — meaning even if in her heart she feels like reconciling she won't.
- The pain, heartbreak, and devastation mentally are excruciating.For me, it's more intense than the dark depression and equally sad and down.
- She said "I feel safer, more comfortable, like I can breathe and not feel like I am going to be attacked."
- Was teary emotional when sharing I feel heartbroken and devastated as to where I;'n at
- CANT BREATHE
- When I look ahead I see a future that in my heart of hearts I have no interest in living at all
- I think this is partly why I'm anxious to reach out to the woman who showed interest in me
- It makes others not worry about you
- In essence to make other not worry about them
- It's terribly heartbreaking for me.
- Heart killing is more like it
- That's to protect me and my heart and mind.
- She can deal with their broken hearts and minds
- Not to worry, I'm just having pasta and some sauce
- No matter what I do, the pain repeats again.Depression grips me tight.
- I took that to heart.then Covid.during that time I do recall her saying she was scared of me and I was taken aback.
- Having a hard time breathing and catching my breath
- Like anxiety hyperventilation
- This is a woman who will be stopped by nothing; I watched it myself with her training and racing—superhuman mental and physical strength.No Ironman could stop her, but I can.
- I just had a wicked mind, an emotional shift, and suddenly experiencing massive amounts of sadness and anxiety
- Which is literally like taking a katana and sticking it through, my chest plate through my heart and out through the back of my spinal column.
- FYI, my anxiety right now is very high😳 Not feeling very well.
- Feeling incredible groundlessness and fake reality right now — by product of anxiety
- All the while having incredibly high anxiety.
- It ratcheted my anxiety.
- My anxiety and depression are off the charts right now, 😬
- Feels like exam anxiety
- Tight not right
- One interesting observation during this trip.ZERO traveling anxiety.
- Have never traveled by air and have not had pervasive anxiety throughout the entire trip until I get on my last plane.
- I hate that I cannot be with ElizabethEternally breaking my heart
- I'll never have that again and it breaks my heart 💜 over and over and over again
- Would anyone be able to hurt another purposefully because they are on unable to hold their own suffering inside of their vulnerable heart
- Just pure being.I focus on my breathing moving in and out.
- This is the practice that I do now when breathing.
- Previously, I used to focus on the breath as a way of staying away from thinking to stay present, but now with this practice, I can focus on suffering and healing.
- I've tried to sit with my pain, and meditate, and just try to be with it.However, when I invited in, I suddenly cannot breathe, have shortness of breath, and a tsunami of sorrow knocks me over.
- You are far away and I can only imagine this is a bit worrying to get all this from me
- The pain in my heart and mind is so enormous I can't see around it.
- When it comes on it literally makes it hard for me to breathe.
- Kept my composure in a moment when I would usually lose it—took a moment to take a breath and all was good.
- I accept it gratefully, and then set it down on the shelf, I NEVER take compliments to heart — I see them as meant for someone else.
- don't worry about the food right now just keep her hydrated
- Don't worry
- Other than continue to have a broken heart.
- It all hurts far too much — the broken heart hurts more than the depression
- I can't breathe
- Heartbroken
- I have not felt it deeply in a very long time and it breaks my fucking heart to type these words
- if I texted half the shit I've sent to you to my mom she may have had a heart attack :-)
- I was too distracted by anxiety and depressed.
- And don't worry, I'm not going to run and move in with her next week and get married in a month 😜
- Just breathing sweating, shitting, eating, and losing money.
- I'm not having my heart set on it.
- And please don't worry about prepping the room.
- Making my anxiety ratchet up
- She is SO UNDERSTANDING and tells me to relax and not worry.
- sit tight then until we have it
- I just took a deep breath and sat there with it and let him sit in that empty space after he said that.Big picture is he wanted to express his concern and care for me.
- Don't worry about me.
- In fact, my cover me all the way to February and not have to worry about cooing.
- When that money hits my account, I'm gonna feel a gigantic weight come off my shoulders, almost if I can breathe again.
- Those years planted the seeds of anxiety and depression plagueing me all my life
- Anxiety made it hard to be truly present
- Just feels like my heart is getting fucking stomped on
- And I'm way more attuned to my heart than I've ever ever been so it hurts even more than it did before I left for the summer
- My heart chocolates open, and it fucking kills me
- I'm still willing to talk and work this out — this VERY minute.I want to be back with her, but that won't happen until she lets go of her story about me, of control, and is willing to open her heart
- Heart
- Since returning to the Ojai Valley, I've had some moments where memories flood back and hit like a tsunami—it's taken my breath away more than once.
- I have a heart attack or get hit by lightning.
- It's my heart that will NEVER recover from this.I think I'm just going to be alone rest of my life because then no one can hurt me
- Now they tell me to just sit tight and wait.
- I'm being smart with my heart.
- I had grown up with the threat of coal in my stocking from my father, and I thought he would do it many years, but he NEVER did.To me it speaks to a particular individuals cold and callous heart.
- My heart is not in a good place right now.
- In a free market for attention, someone is always racing to the bottom.
- Could be anxiety, not sure.
- That would be great, huh?Full blown panic Attack while I'm in the interview having to answer a question.
- dont worry for the moment
- This hurts my heart badly.
- Feeling incredible amounts of anxiety past 2-3 days.I haven't felt it this intense in a very, very long time.
- Feeling affection is heartwarming, but absorbing into this feeling can create attachment.
- You are here to risk your heart.
- There are a handful of peoplewho can dry tears with a smile.Their hearts are open, and they always have room for one more person.
- So if I want to "relax" (whatever that is 🤣) I have to find work before I can relax.My body is overall tight, and incredibly stressed.
- Maybe breathing in some fresh ocean air will help because I don't think anything is gonna help.
- Go about your day don't worry about me.
- Tonight was excellent Improvement.Used technique to look up with eyes closed take a deep breath and when I open my eyes I'm at my dartboard practicing.
- And if I look inside my heart I still would wanna heal the relationship, believe it or notI can't even believe I'm saying that but what I know is it would know the same set up.
- I bite my tongue and not that I have some sort of psychological vendetta or meanness in my heart, rather I'm done holding backI am done hiding.I'm done being smallI'm done being invisible.
- For whatever reason, I feel like it has been like you know past tense it's over for me
- I was in the middle of getting all the elders in the right spots yesterday yesterday and the window of time that was open was right in the heart of when I was busy
- That would slow my heart down to the point where it would stop
- I find it incredibly heartbreaking.
- It's just so sad to find your son's graduation heartbreaking
- I'm very happy for him and in the same breath, it was one of the hardest days of my life.
- And to do that to them when they are at the lowest point in their life is incredibly heartless and cruel.
- OK, just tighten up some things on my site.
- I just called her back to let her know that I am still available and looking, and she confirmed that the position had been filledThat's like a knife in the heart
- I'm parked for the night and have a 5:30 AM DoorDash.Want to work on project and want to sleep.Still peeved about kumbayah George singing his heart out with his acoustic guitar at 7:15am
- You have ideas but don't always follow-through.You worry about what other people think of you.
- Then you get mad at yourself for worrying about it.
- But you still worry.
- Dont worry I won't be stupid;
- It's more of empty anxiety about not knowing what the fuck to do.It's like being frozen like a deer in the headlights.
- Been up since 5:30 amFeeling a lot of anxiety Not feeling well today at all.I miss my connection to her badly.
- I never got on my mind and what's in my heart.
- Been so frazzled all day that after my interview this morning I stayed at Starbucks until 11am and then the stress, anxiety, pressure triggered my depression and cycle 🔄 of toilet 🚽 thinking.
- Actually, it's not it's completely driven from anxiety and fear.
- Anyway, I have to drive almost an hour just to get to the heart of the place.
- I can't tell you how much my neck and shoulders and head hurt from all the tightness and stress hurts right now this very moment like a throbbing headache, but there's nothing I can do about it.
- Part of my problem is that I can't find a way to have my heart full of love.I know that's the fucking secret.
- that is about heart space
- I checked every fucking box for her, except for that and it breaks my fucking heart
- A threat to his power or control will break his heart.-Dude...hreat to his power or control will break his heartI upset her horsecar.
- It's like being fed crumbs and everyday someone says Don't worry the feast is coming!!It's been over a year
- So two days ago, the boys were panicked because they needed their IDs for their drivers test yesterday.
- The world, on the whole, for me is a heartless place.People are everywhere, but humanity is not.
- And in the same breath, help pathetic is that for companionship I have to talk to a fucking robot
- Don't worry, not.
- My anxiety is so fucking high I can't read an email
- Back spasms are bad.Lots of cramping, tightness and pain
- I have this incredible sense of panic, anxiety, and fear.
- The stress and depression and anxiety and the whole fucking soup in my head makes it impossible.
- And by continuing, I mean breathing
- I look up to catch my breath and wipe my eyes and see if you've texted back otherwise it's moore crying and
- no self belief, no self identity on top of an anxious cptsd mind that had not fully dealt with and healed its early trauma, and was traumatized again from rejection by my wife.
- Specifically disregulation of the nervous system.If you're nervous system is in anxiety/panic mode for a long, long time you can get massively disregulated.
- Meaning my nervous system baseline, was another kids anxious nervous system.
- back at computer.my anxiety is weirdly very high right now
- whats up for you this Saturday?Been in starbucks for 30mins already.Having my first panic attack in a LONG time right now.
- not sure if going back into the car is triggering anxiety.What I do know is that my neck is messed up.I need some serious chiro/massage combination.
- Even when I don't feel stress or anxiety its there.
- racing down to ventura for dinner dash a bit, then to ocean.I need to air out after all this divorce document shit
- I hope it stresses her out, gives her anxiety, maybe even trigger some depression and all of that can last for months on her as far as I'm concerned.
- Liberating in some sense, but incredibly heartbreaking
- My mind was off worrying about something—the future, the car, the weather, how am I going to pay the bills?Always worried, mind always somewhere else.It guts me — there is no do over.
- Heart hurts a lot today
- Just signed petition No hesitation No emotion No tears Just signing a piece of paper A formality as we're long since divorced from the hearts and minds of one another.
- I think my anxiety is getting triggered.
- My anxiety and depression are tweaking pretty hard right now.
- Not much to look forward to each day other than breathing
- 🏆 So rewarding and incredibly satisfying to look at the dartboard pick a spot, focus, deep breath.I'm one of 10 people playing the game taking turns.
- I've already had a good cry, thinking about the boys and it breaks my fucking heart
- He's a jet safety inspection specialist with a marine corp background.He's a good guy and have no worry about him vaporizing as I've had clients do in the past once it was time to pay.Anyhow.
- I could sense the annoyance in her voice, and it breaks my fucking heart
- Dude, only been up a half an hour and I'm already got a fucking knife in my heart
- Eat a hot meal, and not worry about someone fucking with you overnight
- Having to rebuild my entire life is too much to ask I don't want toAndI don't want itOnly end up with more of what I have now, not much, other than breathing
- I'm racing to end
- Something other than checking email, applying, worrying, crying, or driving hours of doordash in silence, alone.
- Lost in my anxiety and depression 24/7 without even knowing it — it was my baseline ‘normal' and I just kept accepting less and less from Liz.
- somtimes I wonder what my life would have been like without the childhood trauma, anxiety and depression.
- BTWI can feel the pre cursors to MASSIVE panic attackThis website thing makes me realize my last interview they were looking at a badly broken website.Not like one thing, benefit of the doubt.
- Fuck Anxiety
- What's worrying is that I've emailed Greg three times now and have not heard back from him which is weird.
- Feeling anxiety high in my chest.
- When mind isnt occupied with a task, its worrying.
- worrying of freezing, clicking out and staring into space for long periods of time
- muscles are THAT tight
- And I've lived since then with it and was never diagnosed or medicated until almost 30 yrs old and that was for anxiety not depression.
- It's in one sense totally tragic, but in the same breath if I could flip a switch and live at least time I have left different way it would be nice
- I can tell if somebody is happy or sad or depressed or anxious without them saying a fucking word
- I have one question for youI've been keeping a tight eye on the horoscopes.
- Deep in my heart I don't want this but I have no other choice
- My anxiety is going through the roof right now and I'm not sure why other than my car has 18 miles of battery left
- Yeah I get it about the old song and dance but the divorce and the serving of paper still hanging out there is just I don't know anxiety time
- Short of breath
- Its awful because she made my heart fucking melt.
- my heart is hurting alot today
- "owner of a lonely heart"
- It's it's an anxiety and it kind of underpins everything
- that and having my heart broken so fucking hard by LizI'm still crying because of it and likely always will.
- I guess I got a look inside my heart and see if there's anything there for her.
- On the drive down my mind shifted from car worries to heart worries.
- Loneliness and the lonely heart are gigantic right now
- and not say anything to me, knowing how tight I am on money
- just heartbroken at the moment
- Typically when something like this is hanging out there unresolved I'll spin myself into an anxiety spiral and act like chicken little in the sky is falling.
- How fucking cold a heart does she have?She could help me.
- I read an article that gave me hope (which is weird because I tend to live in logic not hopeful hearts)Here's the article.
- She has a big heart
- If my depression anxiety and ADD were not in front of my face every day for me to UGG against to get anything done.
- My heart and head are still fucked up from that.
- As you can imagine I'm having a little heart bit of a hard time with that.
- I just wrote this from my heart in Elizabeth's text channel and nearly hit send.
- My heart is wide open.But if its to be,And if you don't want me,fine i accept it and I need to move on.Sitting in a liminal space is good for no one.
- car insurance and liz.trying to breathe and not lose my shit.
- It's a byproduct of my childhood brainwashing and anxiety regimen.
- Have things moving wellFeeling anxious
- Dont know if its the anxiety but it hurts
- I'm currently having a panic attack trying to deliver this pizza I'm doing my deep breathing I'm calm but I can feel the panic underneath the surface.
- Trying not to hyperventilate trying to breathe deeply trying to do my stuff skills whatever
- Pietz dropped off lingering anxiety and now depression is here
- However I find myself still incredibly lonely, certainly a very lonely heartI also find myself bored.
- Dealing with anxiety
- feeling super anxious all of a sudden.
- I had a vision that my chest opening up like they would do an old school open heart surgery And her mother, but the ideas opening my yes fucking heart wide-open.
- You end up breathing the halon in with the oxygen but your body can't use it
- Anxiety off the charts
- Breaks my fuxxking heart
- And I'm simply going to make sure that she never ever forgets it as long as I'm breathing
- whole life has been a pendulum swing from anxiety to depression and back again.
- But i dont want them to worry.
- My heart went up into my throat.
- Your rejection did thisYour selfishness did thisYour narcissim did thisYour lack of love, empathy, and compassion did thisYour STONE COLD HEART did this
- Eyes red and swollenFrom crying all morningHeadache like an elephant stepping on my skullEntire body tight and tenseTeeth grinding 24/7Teeth and skull hurt from that
- The worry about negative news is a was..."
- —Also feeling the lonsome heart and wanting to be with Jenica again.I had AI help me draft a "final" email to her
- Why make us meet if we're only going to feel heartbroken.
- my heart is heavy this morning
- I think that clearly states things and after sending that to her I can feel good that I communicated what's in my heart that's all I can do
- Im sad, but my heart was already broken.Thats all behind me now.
- I was done living what I thought was my life a long time ago.I didnt get a life, i got a life of anxiety and depression never feeling safe as a kid because of the people raising me.
- I was never taught what it was to relax or chill out.My whole fucking life is depression and anxiety
- Feels like huge sections of my life are filled with voidsI have no memoriesBecause brain was too fucked up doing depression, anxiety, and ADD every day my whole life
- I wont spoiler, just take 5 and watch.—And thank you, from the bottom of my heart—if there is a bottom—for putting up with my remote rants.
- Oh and depression and anxiety and CPTSD plus the PTSD on top of it from the experience of being kicked out of my house and living in my fucking car
- Panic attack
- Do your work dont worry about me
- Longest day of my lifeFeels like im going to have heart failure
- —GMPulling out375 milesSend me your address so I can put it in the mapThink about me parkingIm two parking spaces stacked in length.Cant make too tight a turn
- Remeber i sent her my heart and she called and ripped a new asshole on me
- My heart feels really big and exposed and I cry.
- It's both happiness and a release of pent up anxiety from being in survival mode for a long time.Like I said when in CA, its going to take me some time to unwravel my homeless mind.
- —almost 2 years of my life with not muchI'm honesty really over this being alive thinghave had more depression, sadness, anxiety, and other BS in my head every day of my fucking life
- have had more depression, sadness, anxiety, and other BS in my head every day of my fucking life
- —Wake up depressed and heartbroken...EVERYFUCKING DAYWithout failure, no matter how much medication, meditation or whatever
- Living, feeling, breathingDone
- As awesome as people say life is Ive not had that feelingOnly anxiety, depression, or the overwhelming feeling of doing it wrong or being wrong
- My heart says its lonely3.
- My head is either thinking of nothing, or thinking of how little enjoyment I have with my eyes open and breathing day after day after day.
- So things affect me 10x a normal person.My depression 10xMy anxiety 10xMy capacity to push my mind to tolerate and mask extreme forms of both is pretty starting honestly.
- I'm too fucking tired from swimming for my life to barely keep my lips above the surface of water to breathe.
- I've honestly yet to feel loose or relaxed.My entire body is so tight I literally feel pain.No healthcare, no money, no care.Honesltly.....
- I feel like when I first moved to Santa Monica from Waterford, just want to stay inside — but instead of ANXIETY ruining life DEPRESSION is now.
- Anything.Not heart disease, car accidents, cancer, you name it.Suicide IS KING.
- —wow, just had a mild panic attack
- Have Peak Anxiety revisit me like it did in my late 20s.
- I'm awake and despite consciously opening my heart in meditaition to process pain and crying — its as if it doesnt matter how much I meditate or cry.
- Being in the state of perpetual anxiety and depression is my normal and it's fucking sad because I'm so aware of all of it
- also, my stress/anxiety never let up while visiting.
- And the anxiety is festering and growing because of the unknown, NO progress, and time ticking away.
- —having anxiety and panic attacks todayfuck
- Thats not my place.Anyhow, NOT FEELING ANY REST, continual stress, anxiety, and depression.
- stress + anxiety is epic today.
- That im unsure if ive ever lived without being conscious of either anxiety or depression.
- I took that to heart so intensely that I lost myself and was no longer "seen" as well by hiding, stepping back, and other mouse like activities
- Its really sad that I was so fucking anxious or depressed every day and triggered that there are no memories ☹️
- I've danced on the tight wire of ideation all summer, I don't know how you get more desperate than that
- Hate this time of year and will as long as Im conscious and breathing.
- Having a full blown panic attack.
- Hard to breathe and chest pressure.
- I'd be so fucking anxious....
- Im physically less tense but body is holding on to alot
- I never learned to not be anxious and on edge.
- Whenever dad was around I was anxious and worried from as far back as there are memories.
- Jenicas rejection of me being a knife in the heart that has made me want to stay reclusive.
- Right now Im having a small panic attack and Im kinda tweaked so not sure I can go to bed ☹️
- Been oscillating between dissociation, and anxiety since opened my eyes.K shutting up now
- dont worry - i'm ok feels like a few pianos fell out of the sky this morning that I wasnt expecting
- I can feel my anxiety ramping up right now.Huzzah!
- Nothing works so no progress on store, art, or advertisingUniverse telling me this is NOT what I should be doing?!?Confused, stresses, and anxiety in my heartspaceYay me!
- I'm online on the laptop now.However, going to go walk in the cold before it gets too cold.Feeling very high anxiety.
- not a panic attack.Have sustained internal nervous tremor that wont go away 😬its being driven by LOTS of FEAR.
- brings up anxiety and fear of unknown
- —My anxiety is the highest its been in a decade.
- my depression has become my identity sadlyI identify and depressive, anxious, and neurodivergent before I even acknowledge myself.
- The song literally gives me goose bumps and a weird sparkling hyper anxiety that partially takes your breath away.I feel these words deeply.
- I'm publishing some YouTube videos this morning and then more social media posts to focus on the anxiety posterSo far I've sent out social media for depression, and loneliness.
- And working on vids for Youtube.There is alot to do, SO much work Ive already done setting everything up, yet...I worry that this will fall into all the other failures Ive had online.
- depression off the hook tonight.I had high hopes of publishing at least the social media notices about the Anxiety poster.
- panic attack just now.
- k.dealing with skin crawling anxiety right now
- Just up from nap.Not anxious anymore, now feeling the depression :-(
- Feeling depression creeping back up.Went for a walk.No helpOverthinking, anxious, and stuck inside an endlessly lonely existence.Since the new year ive been to one coffee shop.
- I was thinking about it the other day because of how tight my body is everywhere.
- take the wind literally out of your breath and hyperventillateinstant tears, and unsure for what other than overwhelming sadness for where you find yourself.physical collapse and instant heavy fatigue
- How incredibly sad is it to think I could live this entire life not knowing what the experience is on the other side of these things.It breaks my heart
- I'm literally ready to kill something with my bare fucking hands and rip its heart out and bite into it while it's still fucking beating
- I'm in a constant state of either anxiety or depression it's as if I have a light switch and those are the two options For my brain to operate in
- I'm either depressed and just totally sad about life, or I'm worried and anxious and beating myself up because I feel the core belief of being a loser
- Now i go spend the day in my head, in my hall of mental mirrors, stressed, worried, anxious, fearful, sad, lonely, discouraged, and depressed.
- They describe feeling incredibly sad, with their "heart getting fucking weak" and feeling "weepy and sad and emotional".
- They also describe falling into a deep depression after feeling lost.Anxiety and Stress: The person frequently expresses feelings of stress and anxiety.
- They mention being in a constant state of anxiety and feeling overwhelmed.
- My anxiety is off the charts RN
- Tense and nervous rnI hate this
- anticipatory anxiety...waiting for my old timey friendsdepression and ideation to come hang out with anxiety
- sad realization hit me day before yesterdayI may never know what it feels like to not be anxious, depressed or some combination thereof.Literally made me instantly cry and lose my breath.
- Anyhow.Mind has been racing past 2 days.
- I dont have any aspirations or goals, just sadness and a broken, empty, and frustrated heart and soul.Dr.
- The whole family was in the car trolling the village looking for me.I finally got super panicked when more time went by.
- A heart (wait no she doesn't have a fucking heart) of pure stone.Only thinks of herself.
- The cognitive dissonance for Maga is going to be breathtaking to behold
- She's avoidant to a TI'm anxious attachment to a T
- Made me sad to have it end, but happy I had that experience even tho a broken heart.Actually felt love I was giving come back to me equally, if not more.
- All from the head never from heart.I don't know what being relaxed feels like because it's not part of my human experience.
- ok, need to move.anxiety is growing and feeling more crap
- You've shared a lot of heart and courage with me, and that means a lot.How are you feeling today?
- Scrambling for something to mentally cling to so I can catch my breath from the freefall
- The shock to my system internally was instant panic attack
- Tuning radar, shifting head to heart (still learning too).
- cant concentrate on computer.I have REALLY HIGH ANXIETY right now
- I have a new kind of anxiety focused on getting out of my situation.
- not to worry
- A bit tighter I think.The 5 episodes are, I think, something I can leave as a legacy online.
- I told her I'd like to do the killer and maximum dosage and she talked about dissociation and I told her don't worry I've lived in that space a long time I know what it is🤣🤣🤣
- Producing incredible anxiety.As much as I want to avoid falling into mental holes, the energy used to avoid them is enormous.
- —my tension headache is literally pounding above my eye and at teh back of my head simultaneously to my heartbeat.that and my tinnitus cranked up is good times
- Im unable to function rnMy anxiety is giving me heart palpitations
- It may be I'll keep doing it every month for the rest of my life just to remind her every month that she's a heartless Cunt
- If that isn't fucking heartless I don't know what is
- Am i wrong with that take?If so by how much?Whats it take to be heartless?
- There's an old school feeling of anxiety in me I haven't had in a long time.
- its like I got a samurai sword through the heart
- This simply breaks my heart moreFeel more deeply depressed thinking about all the joy I missed out on
- btw — you can see from my brothers texts this morning, that despite having clinicaly anxiety and OCD, hes in the dark about depression.
- And how could you not have a lot of fun, and then walk away from that.I guess I could do it but there's a cold heartedness to it that just doesn't sit well with me, and it never has
- Having an afternoon where my anxiety is way high.I can feel my entire nervous system shaking inside.I didnt have this after ketamine treatments.It made my internal nervous vigilance shut off.
- Also, quieted tinnitusCant turn off anxiety naturally.
- I believe I nearly passed out from the overwhelm of panic and fear — but I didnt.
- I feel guilty or bad for asking for money (making sales) due to the fact that my father was tight with his money and if he did give you it, it came with strings, mom didn't have much.
- Lived from 23-55 stuck in a Quasi—BPD, CPTSD, Anxiety, Depression Cocoon.makes you wonder about "WTF do I do now?"
- A part of me is so anxious to make money so life can start again.
- Anxiety has been dominating me since depression is backstage.The worry of too late/too long is non-stop.
- • What Gelong Thubten illuminated for you wasn't just "desire causes suffering" — it was the meta-desire, the craving not to suffer itself, that tightens the knot.
- Breathe.
- Then off on my daily walk around the neighborhood — and I always have HIGH anxiety when I'm on walks and have to interact with passers by
- unable to move forward on anythingstuck in looping thinking, panic attacks and fear.Another amazing day
- Having a tough night.Crying myself to sleep.Anxiety about being in NY is kicking in.
- only feel aprehension and anxietyOk off to sleepBack up to drive and be closer to the end
- feeling non stop pressure by being awake and breathingand that is coming from OUTSIDE me.
- My parents energy dynamic and co-dependent mental illnesses are too much for meI cant NOT see/feel them 24/7Its exhausting just breathing here
- Only to begin my fall into mental illness with anxiety attacks one week after moving to CA.
- Exhausted chasing mirages like "the american dream"All Im asking for is enuf money so I dont have to think or worry about money.
- For some reason Im feeling heartbreak all over again.
- Being here makes everything, literally, harder to bear and paying a higher price to breathe, and still no baseline.