# Anger & Frustration — Quotations

- Made myself cry.
- the drought has really made it so much worse
- I then find myself being pissed at me because I'm now stuck in a 36/mo lease 😟
- morning vitamins, stretch/excercise, reading, meditation, made coffee
- I saw something and it made me think about feelings of failure—work, parenting, spouse.
- Had a dream that made me relive time from 4 years ago when I was deeply depressed and not able to be a good dad
- I made the Super Bowl a line in the sand for me with some self care issues.
- Can Inuit Moms Help Me Tame My 3-Year-Old's Anger?
- Darragh‘s team made it to the final game and lost 10.
- I'm mad at myself for not doing things 10-15 years ago that could have made a difference on where I find myself now.
- I can see how I'm so pissed at myself
- It literally brings me to tears I get so frustrated beating the same drum again and again in my mind.
- I've made a little bit of progress in unpacking what I am afraid of
- Im upsetting and frustrating people I love around me
- Made me pause big time
- I woke up this morning completely angry.
- Just woke up angry.
- Emotions are really powerful, and I don't wanna feel angry.
- And now I'm mad at myself for being angry about the things I'm pissed off about, because they seem petty.
- Darragh has told me to my face, "you always seem mad at me." and I explained to him that I get annoyed with things, but not him specifically.
- But he still perceives it as ‘angry at him' Everytime it comes up I cringe that I'm ruining my relationship with him like Aidan.
- Darren Daily on Overwhelm made me cry.
- Made me emotional when I first saw it—I'm feeling incredibly fragile and emotional.
- Made me think of Newhart
- He was incredibly cute with his mom and it made me incredibly nostalgic for my time with all my boys when they were that little.
- Made me want to go back in time.
- they can be frustrating, and not do what you ask when you ask, and life can distract you from how incredible little kids are.
- And today I've made and commitment to myself to spend at least one hour a night going through that stuff I put off perpetually
- Darren said it today, if you're tired and burned out frustrated etc.
- I made up for you
- Just got word Declan made JV soccer at the public school.
- I saw a woman with her small child and made me reflect back to me with the boys.
- Again sorry for the loss.A 20-year-old cat just made me think of our old cat in New York named Jesse.
- At what time does it all turn to Mad Max?
- Made me realize that for intake type of appts (meeting doc for first time) it makes sense to meet on vid call.
- https://blog.prototypr.io/how-i-made-over-33-000-on-the-figma-plugin-without-writing-a-single-line-of-code-9a5ca50f2cc8
- made updates to the website.
- Made it!
- Angry, frustrated, and sad.
- she did like it — made me happy.
- checking in on the changes I made.
- I think the sales people were frustrated with me, primarily because I was going through depression and unable to keep up.
- Also I made a connection to a coach based in London who specializes in quiet borderline personality disorder.
- I listened to something this morning that crushed me—made me feel incredibly sad, like a gut punch, but I needed to hear it.
- Metal, so hard on the ears, but man he matches the rage in the vids.
- Unfortunately neither of their teams made playoffs so seasons ended last weekend.
- Reminding me that I made mistake and atone for it, don't feel like I have
- That she's still completely pissed off at me.
- In fact ive been made to feel that way more than once since being here
- I just 🤯🤬 my dad got pissy with me.Totally mental dump of word salad and rage in his face.Anyhow...
- Made no sense, word salad rage 😡
- (saying/thinking of that in the moment nearly made me cry, and as I write this I do)
- Made excellent progress past few days, its getting close.
- made good progress today.
- I saw 👀 your message today and it made me smile 😊 So cool 😎 to see you all.
- Rang a bell inside my head..."Realise that you are only resentful to the extent that you have given away your personal power.
- The antidote to resentment is acceptance."
- It made me pause and remember what I hold most dear to me, and how I failed to uphold my vows.
- I was staring at the root of a story that has gripped me my whole life; you aren't good enough, you don't measure up.I wasn't feeling my body, I was beyond physical form and everything made sense.
- And later I realize that was quite a story I made up 🙂
- Do you have an elegant themes login?I know they have pre made divi themes I could base it off of, will save a lot of time
- Made more progress today
- This tune by Gnod packs great rage that's cathartic for the moment.Besides the album title is fucking ART of the highest order.If I get it on a t-shirt.Want one?
- made a bit of progress
- I still feel the mad mind around her every time I see her.
- Just had a small interpersonal interaction with LizJust feeling the dark side of her.Little to know words, and flat.She seems extremely tired and burnt out or mad and keeps a lid on it.
- made it 1024x1024 which is still gigantic
- I made mental notes.
- Also, liz just got back from the banquet in a sour mood, went upstairs and changed, and then took the dog out seeming VERY pissed about something.
- Just want to go away and disappear.Professionally it's frustrating but part of process.
- Like art critiques, They can be frustrating but are a necessary part of the process
- Liked "Deposit made"
- And that is certainly something that would've sent me off into clear anxiety and frustration before
- That's why I mentioned I wasn't mad or anything, because I am very surprised at how I feel after hearing all that
- but I was aware of the difference, that's what made me go WOW
- Just heard back from Amazon, and made it to the next round of interviews.I present 2-3 case studies of my work with a UX Designer from Amazon to assess my functional skills.Truly surprised
- There is a rage inside that is killing me
- Feels like dragging yourself thru everyday just to get to the end and collapse mentally and physically.It's made me very jaded and cynical and I hate that
- I'm so angry with myself for all of this.
- It's my reminder every night that I made a mistake and I'm going to be reminded of this the remainder of my days alive.
- It made it more intense
- She said I made her scared a lot and that she has no trust.
- But I'm made to feel that my perspective, doesn't matter
- I feel I'm being made to feel like everything is my fucking fault
- That being said the conversation today made me throw everything into doubt
- She seemed very much of my mind has been made up
- Everybody pretty much avoided me which made me go deeper into myself in buying the more of my depressed lying inside my head
- Her mind is made up and as she said, "there's no going back"
- I think I made a huge mistake giving her all the room and space.
- I feel hostility and anger at times
- I was definitely not blacked out.I asked her when did she feel I was threatening to her.She said many times I would be drinking and angry or yelling.
- She says she has a good life but the idea of finding someone seems like it will never happen.The comments in the thread made me incredibly sad.
- She feared me for the rage, anger, and dark depression that was overflowing out of me regardless of the masking I tried.She feared for herself and the boys.
- I made a vow through good times and bad.
- this part: I would like the compensation to be $12,000.00 per month with payments made on the 10th and 25th of each month via direct payment or ACH.
- I want payments made via direct payment or ACH, and I can provide those details for you.I am excited to begin working with you and the entire team at Hatch.
- Of course I was depressed and that made me feel more isolated.Meanwhile I was spiraling into my depression deeper and deeper because I was feeling the ultimate rejection from my wife.
- i'll prod — why angry?
- I likely just made some interactions easier for you + the fam.
- This is the 5th try from the ground up.Each time I've run into issues — been frustrating, and an enormous time eater.
- Anyhow, I find myself on the edge of anger this morning
- Made local paper 😛
- Therapy long ago would have made us way stronger.
- Plus, we could fly to the continent for champions league games and go see Real Madrid Barcelona go see Bayern Munich, Borussia, Dortmund.
- I remember her seeming far more pissed off when I came back from Colorado, and before I left for New York.
- It pissed her off so much that she pointed at the door and said leave the room right now.
- Liked "Right now she is angry with you and probably herse..."
- But I didn't drive my car in the other people because I was angry with them that's what a nut job would do.
- She was feeling the energy of my frustration.
- I had completely lost my ability to communicate pretty much anything with Liz because the energy of my severe depression and rejection frustration was palpable—it terrified her.
- So I have made mistakes.
- I have the $$ to buy the pre made meals delivered.And going to learn how to get my body into ketosis by using fasting.
- There is still anger and other things that are making her put a wall up between us.
- So fucking hurt and angry.
- SO ANGRY!I ALWAYS did right by her, ALWAYS!!!!!!!And this is what I get.
- I shared my plan and today I am a combination of angry, upset, sad, I'm all mixed up.
- Lots of resentment bubbling up
- The anger I feel, and rage is pretty large, I just feel so hard done by this.
- Everybody is telling me she made a decision and you have to honor it.
- I have every right to happiness that anybody else does and I don't want a divorceI am being made to feel that my opinion doesn't matter, I am being told that I don't matter.
- I had a dad who tried to controll people through guilt, shame and anger (perhaps you did too?) and tried to keep people close to him that way.
- I've found it never works and only drives people further away...cauing more anguish and anger.
- It's a terrible cycle and I don't want to see you go down that road...a road that ultimately leads to resentment and (sometimes) vindictiveness.
- You don't deserve to be resentful or ever become vindictive (that's a dark place).
- I just feel like I wake up, confused, angry and bitter every day until I can call myself down
- I made my colleague laugh hard today at that one
- Then covid made everything worse and more amplified.
- As Madge used to say "You're soaking in it!"
- Logically how can one be taking anything when a decision was made by the other to allow it?
- I was emotionally fucking ignored for years so I have a reason to be pissed.
- I'M REALLY REALLY ANGRY BUT NOT SHURE AT WHAT or at who
- However, it turns out its my behavior towards Liz that made her go.
- Just so fucking angry because none of this should be happening
- I can be as angry about it as I want
- I'm mad at myself.Feeling this experience is evidence of my father's persistent refrain, "you're not good enough," and making it a prophetic implant that my subconscious made true.
- So angry
- Not my father type of angry
- rageful
- It's part of the angry voice, talking back at me going you're just a fuck up, who the fuck do you think you are to be doing what you do or to be alive frankly
- She just saw me in major depressive disorder being massively triggered because she's pushing me away at a time I want to be close.But I was repulsive because of my anger.
- I'm the fucking asshole who hurt Liz and made the divorce happen, remember
- She also made assumptions about what I was thinking/feeling and I barged right in and said, YOU KNOW NOTHING about that because you NEVER asked me.
- Never made my father happy
- With my recent return of depression and suicidal ideation it interestingly made the experience both thrilling and weirdly disappointed
- Yeah, made me wonder what about what I was sharing was so powerful to move her to tears?
- Angry
- I'm going to check the fuck out.I have made up my mind.
- Just made it to semifinals out of 16 teams.
- Ironic she's divorcing me for me "anger" when she really has yet to see me angry towards HER.
- I have classic quiet type borderline personality disorder.What that means is I have a lot of anger that is directed at myself.
- I was just expressing my frustration with my situation.Today's the first day I felt truly terrified for where I'm headed
- "Listen, I know this is hard, but she seems to have made a hard decision.
- That's how I'm made to feel
- Shared idea that Liz is making this all about her.This isn't about her, it's about us, about family.She made a decision about us and about the family without talking to either.
- She was really pissed through text and I could tell.
- Emailed you invites to 2 of the fear/resentment exercises I did from CrappyFairy.
- I'm not mad, it's business.
- Just home from touring apartmentsHad an appointment I made before losing the gig and kept it.
- Made me think of that
- also, made layout update, but no content update on the resume.
- I rebuilt the structure of my PDF document, consolidated style tags, and now tagging content so when its made into PDF and displayed online the content will flow how I say.
- Need to check it out.Liz just walked in and dumped word salad and anger at me.
- So much anger
- I'm just angry and frustrated today.
- Just made my reservation for arches tomorrow at 3 o'clock figure I get in get a campground spot, pitch my tent and then go over
- I'm a bit crazy because I just made it through the longest stretch with no charging through the greatest elevation game so far.
- I made it and I'm charging.
- Made it to camp ⛺️ Stoked
- Some kind of pissed makes me not wanna fucking go back there.
- I did pick up pre made margaitas in a bottle and a red wine for the beef
- Made reservation
- Just made it to trail head
- Watching this made me a bit more freaked about AI
- I'm going to leave this experience and existence frustrated that I could have been more and done more
- Upwork doesn't work for me.Never got one project from the site and I can do ALOT of what's being sought.Just frustrated coming up on 5 months of searching and nothing.
- It's frustration
- I also realize that I am gripping with white knuckles onto an expectation in my mind that isn't happening thereby frustration
- Made me begin to think about it.
- I'll be fine tomorrow morning, but I get to sit inside tonight pissed off because I didn't say no and not go to the thing
- I made a promise to my kid, and if I sat here and let soccer season go by, that would haunt me the rest of my life.
- Car payment made.
- They made a note in my file that I called today they read me everything back.
- Anxiety made it hard to be truly present
- Makes me so fucking mad.
- NEVER made time for me consistently.
- Made it through a rainy night, and the clouds are clearing out a bit this morning
- Not love, not hate, not anger, just a void.
- It was just made abundantly clear to me, that I don't have a family, rather, I have two boys living with their mother.
- Borrowed $300 from my dad last Friday to get me to this Friday and Capital One took $123 today and made it negative 😡🤬😡😤🤬😖
- I find myself very fucking angry this time of year and I think it may stick and be my new version of the holiday spirit."Humbug!
- Just made a good connect with a recruiter on a long term contract role.
- Shared a link to a notion page where I made tables to work with the data, etc.
- My frustration builds and they pops
- Hey there I'll be okI'm just so fucking angry
- I'm negative.I made good progress on job search front yesterday—connected to new recruiter.
- Made that list into a daily framework template
- Less frustrating too
- That thing made me laugh out loud many times
- Liked "Comments made on cover letter"
- It hurts too much and he gave me my mail and then he hugged me really hard and made me cry more.
- I would simply say I saw this this morning, and it made me think of you and us
- Sorry for the frustrations
- Eating, shopping 4 food, recharging car.Made $75 during lunch
- This is the part of the work that would take me FOREVER and cause me SO MUCH FRUSTRATION
- I designed her a card made it myself.
- All good hereJust minor frustrations
- And thank you for your words and help.Its made a difference.
- I made 84 actually maybe 100 bucks in the past couple days.
- It adds to frustration and stress significantly because my critic uses it as a weapon against me to point out how I have failed persistently through my life.
- Really angry and depressed right now simultaneously and when I'm like this, it's a good thing I don't have a gun cause I would just go fucking bananas
- Also, I went to Westridge to get a freshly made gluten-free pizza for dinner and they were out of gluten-free dough.So it's turkey, cheese and maybe some chips with my beer tonight alone.
- Find myself Fed up, Angry, Depressessed and a new clarity that multiple parts of my personality are frozen in time from the past.
- So angry right now
- This was made for you:
- The madness in photo form
- So fucking angry right now and I have no fucking outlet.
- I'm so pissed like fucking eat.
- I'm also pissed at speech to text because it sucks balls and never gets anything right
- I had two hours to make money and I made six bucks.
- I've just had a frustrating afternoon on top of my regular frustration
- Liz has made every fucking decision about this.
- And when nobody gets you, it's frustrating.
- Frustrated.DoorDashing and getting no orders.
- Last night I was lucky and barely made enough to put 10 bucks on my car charging card and was able to get enough battery to get to Darts and back.
- Better off goneNo more frustration and mental suffering from a life I was forced into
- I made $9, but had a $1 in the account so I could transfer.I transferred the money and was able to charge.
- Have made $0
- I'm certainly not healthy and not clean and my body has the welcome mad out for something.
- ie, made $50 for 2hrs once
- I made good progress today.
- frustrated with just about everything
- So pissed.
- What a frustrating fucking day.
- Yeah, great meanwhile I have to text my dart team and they'll be pissed.
- I'm just pissed because it's the one thing I do that takes my mind off of my bullshit and I can't do it so I get to stew in my fucking head all night
- I'm just angry, so fucking angry
- I'm angry.
- I'm super pissed that I couldn't make any money because I ordered some stuff from the dispensary and was going to pick it up today before DartsFuck
- Have you made it to the front range or are you stationary?
- I did OK I made 30 bucks.
- He literally said you never made any money and literally 30 seconds later he saying something entirely different and I said wait a minute you just told me you just said it literally look at that.
- You never made any money like my working life.
- Last night at dinner, Darragh shared something with me that made me realize he's going off and getting a father figure to step in for him so there's that too
- Somehow made to feel that one needs to move ON and LET GO.
- Just so fucking angry that Elizabeth abandoned me
- It's made me feel very old and worthless.
- I'm just so angry and I will be angry forever about this.
- And that makes me even more angry
- I was smoking a shit ton of pot to numb myself because my wife fucking made me feel invisible.
- Taking a vow of marriage is a solemn promise and to abandon that is to abandoned person you made that promise to.
- That usually determines the size of the pot.This past couple weeks I've made a couple of adjustments to my approach and my hold and my release.
- I can't get over the fact that Liz honored nothing she said to meHer vowsHer ask for space and time then talkI can't accept this when I don't understand why.She made no effort to make it work.
- And I made some progress on the setup of the GroupX site
- Made lots of spacing and slight animation tweaks.
- His criticism was sharp and to the point — you'll never make money doing art, you'll be broke.And weirdly in this moment I realize that I made that dream of his come true.
- I'm just angry and fed up being in prison
- Once I did I laughed out loud because this is true for me 24/7.At times, people with the INTJ personality type may wonder whether dealing with other people is even worth the frustration.
- I did three of them today and was available for maybe eight hours and I think I made $30 in deliveries for eight hours.
- Discovered today that minimum wage is only for some cities so I made $6 hour last week for 25 hours of dashing last week Have 150 in acct and I'm scheduled to dash today tomorrow every day forward.
- So mad ashamed pissed off
- Then you get mad at yourself for worrying about it.
- Made some progress yesterday and want to keep that going.
- Interesting being in Starbucks before the madness ensues
- Emphasized "Yes - the made an offer.
- You have no idea which way is up which way to goI just sent Liz a text about some thing I learned with regard to Darragh and it really pissed me off.
- Is anyone in this situation has a right to be pissed off at this point in time and has an absolute right to scream it to the fucking hills it is me and guess what kids it's showtime
- The root of frustration, dismay, and dissatisfaction, is expectation.Remove it by practicing acceptance.
- The thing that's probably most frustrating is that I don't have anything positive in my life.
- I'm angry 😡
- That made me so angry about her entitlement that if she was in front of me, I would've punched her in the teeth
- And then Sherry tells me dude you're too angry blah blah blahAgain I nearly lost my mind because I feel angry and I feel it that it's justified.Please tell me if I'm wrong you know I will hear it
- I try to tell her, but I start getting too pissed off text message and I can't control myself.
- In fact I rage texted her yesterday and copied and pasted it out into Grammarly and did not send it, I should copy and paste and send it to you.
- OK, I'm parked and pissed off.
- OK cool, just done with the DoorDash and made some money to eat.
- I've been more than kind and patient, I have been a bit irritable and angry, but hey, I'm human and I'm dealing with a lot of shit so please everyone the world included.
- On my way out I see Elizabeth sitting in her car talking on the phone so I made a point of walking in front of her car and pouring at her until she recognize me and then I waved.
- We're going to to see me turn from angry to calm and we're gonna see her turn from calm lit like a fucking Roman candle
- I know she texted she didn't "really" want to be in contact.We left it as friends and I started texting her like a friend and I think that made it harder for her So...
- Feel really bitter today and I'm fed the fuck up if anybody fucking pokes me today they are gonna get a fucking mouthful of fury because I'm just about fucking had my cup is full
- Liked "Coffee shop made offer.
- They took more than half the money I made yesterday.
- I have made $15 today, 4 hours.Doing 3 more now, but not optimistic.
- So the money I made on my last cash is gone.
- I'm just angry.
- I'm angry pretty much all the time.
- I don't have the ability at least right now given my current state to relax at all, at any time.I get frustrated with anything or anyone who are in my way.
- Made $20
- I did have my single best day ever this past week I made over $100 but that was a lot of driving.
- That's why I get so fucking angry and I start swearing calling everybody a fucking ass fuck!
- I'm livid mad right now I could fucking scream.
- Just so fucking angry that would've made me be able to pay storage
- I was pissed because I could've done that one delivery and been done
- I feel like taking the money I made for storage and going and buying a beer
- I'm angry at everything and everyone Just grinding my teeth And tension Don't know why other than I hate my life
- 2 more hours of dashing and made $10 to charge my car Yay
- So pissed I can't go and play
- Part of the reason I have no retirement or anything to fall back on it because I never made enough money in the first place to put anything away.
- I find myself angry right from waking up
- I made about $60 today, but had to charge, buy food, etc.Have $39 Have to pay my phone and then the car and then storage.
- Now I'm down to 37 miles on my battery so I got to go charge again and spend another 10 bucks so I just made almost 30 bucks and a third of it has to go to my car immediately.
- He sent me changes to be made and I'm still making them.
- Shows the court I made a good faith effort to heal my marriage before getting to this point.
- made $50 at lunch today which was great.
- The video I made that's on LinkedIn?
- He used to do his own taxes, long form at the dining table until he had too many variables at Play so it made sense to hire somebody who knew shit.
- My body has madeThat default mode now
- I'm just so fucking angry.I'm angry at everything
- Whatever fucking point this is trying to prove ain't working because at this point, I'm just fucking angry and I don't give a shit anymore.
- I'm really fucking bitterActually might be more that than angry
- What made me think of this was the different packaging and the amount or lack there of in terms of packaging.
- She seemed pissed off to see me.
- I could hear it in her voice which made me sad
- I don't want to think about her but she's in my head.I consciously got mad at myself and said stay in the present DONT GO BACKWARDS And it doesn't seem to change anything.
- I'm aware of it, the intensity and probably a giant feeling of helplessness because not in person.If I put myself in the hypothetical I would be FRUSTRATED but would't share it with you.
- frustrated too.
- It just makes me bitter and angry and resent everything.
- The things that once made them content are no longer fun or enjoyable.
- And then it made me think for a moment that Liz may not want to go through with this because she hast to give up a lot financiallyBut the law is 50-50 so I'm just thinking out loud OK I'll stop
- It sucks because hanging out with her I suddenly was introduced to her social circle and made a ton of friends around here in Ventura through her.
- The last thing I want to do is upset her more than I have by texting her because I know texting her makes her mad but there's probably another part of that that I'm texting her
- I find myself alone depressed and angry.
- Largely angry because I'm alone and don't have anybody to share anything with Just sucks because it makes me more depressed it's like a fucking demon feeding itself
- Its awful because she made my heart fucking melt.
- It made meLaugh.
- Should you cross paths with me you will feel my fury without guardrails.
- For an hour and a half I've been doing a lot of positive thinking about money I'm gonna make money this isn't gonna be a problem and I've made 15 bucks I need 55 more dollars
- And even if somebody were to give me money I have to withdraw it physically and then go pay money to put it on the card to pay for the car it's fucking madness
- If I had a gun I'd go into the Adobe offices right now and shoot every motherfucker on site I'm so angry at Adobe they've ruined my fucking life I fucking hate Adobe
- And I gotta make the comment driving around in society and seeing happy people makes me madI want to be happy too but I don't have the foundation upon which to make that happen at this moment.
- Anyhow, looks like I'm headed to a depressed angry friday night battling inside my head — suxWasted fucking days and going on 2 years of this fucking repeat shit show.
- I hope you can see/understand my frustration with having to output a shit-ton of effort and energy to get out of this.
- I'm gonna spend my whole fucking day on the phone tomorrow it's just frustrating is all fucking hell
- Just frustrated that I get one thing done and two more show up.
- I bet she's pretty pissed about divorce paperwork.
- All I know is she's wanting a divorce over a story she's made up in her head and she has others blindly believing her truth without EVER speaking to me, or asking me what happened.Thats honestly fine.
- I got triggered and got angry and went into a tailspin.
- I've done a lot of shadow work yesterday and today when I got triggered tonight my anger came right the fuck out and was ready to destroy everything.
- Like a pent up rage from this experience.
- I'm so angry not just for being put in this place, but the willful ignorance of my situation by someone who I fucking married.
- That reaction I have is rooted in my shadow it's not anger it's something else perhaps rooted deeper
- I have no idea if you read anything I wrote about running into Jenica's friends who I thought were my friends but tonight made that abundantly clear to me
- it's made me realize that with running into Jenica like a month ago I don't know if I want to be here at least right now.
- I'm extremely pissed off right now
- He was pissed off that I filed for divorce, he said you just wanna take half of everything mom has.He doesn't know that she asked for the divorce.
- This is part of Angry Bert being integrated now I am upset but I am not out of control
- I've been around enough angry people to know when they are going to pop and he is ready to go
- I was just thinking that I should tell Aidan he should be pissed at his mother for being so dishonorable at not honoring her wedding vows.
- Anyhow on my way up to Ohio I'm almost to the 33 I'm just feeling kind of pissed off and unhappyjust sucks to bust your ass and not get what you need
- Thinking about hypotheticals in the future with my father was a survival technique it made me think about if X happens or Y happens then I need to take Z action
- Just finished day 10Wow.Feels different but need some time.Going to do the course again, but thought u might find it helpful if you find yourself dealing with anger triggers etc
- I'm so angry about the vows
- I haven't spent time with other people in weeks I'm going fucking mad inside my own skull
- No money for food.Made some today but some already charged car and ill spend the rest tomorrow and next day.
- There are some young women who don't look over 16 kind of like Liz back in the day just made Me laugh
- You were so incredibly angry with me.
- I don't care who you are you don't honor the vows you made in front of God every relative you have.
- She put in no effort and made lots of promises and broke them all.
- I've almost made it to three hours of being awake and haven't lost my shit yet so it's starting out OK I'd like to keep it this way.
- She got pissed about that and said nobody's making my mind up.Grrrrrrr
- Never happened and SHOULD have.The narcissist didn't have to work after that she had me trapped and obeying her Because she made me feel like a bad husband.
- Going to go mad.Fucking hate this
- This isn't coming from a crying weeping place this is coming from a really angry place this is coming from a different part of me that I've not dealt with before
- Yeah you can read lots of anger in my text I am angry but it's pointless for me to scream at an inanimate object just won't do anything for me I've already done the screaming
- Why are we this close?Universe made it happen.She knows im over here.
- No money, no food.One more hour of this dash and have made $0 so far.Only dash of the day
- Her problem is she's uncomfortable with me opening my mouth and speaking up.Total fact every time I open my mouth and that relationship she would get frustrated and shut down
- Like I've had my whole fucking life destroyedI have a goddamn right to be fucking angry as hell and everybody can suck my dick
- I don't wanna text anymore it's makes me more angry
- Did 3 1/2 hours of DoorDash Ing this morning and got zero deliveries I made zero money.
- Frustrating, unproductive, depressing
- Loneliness hurts deeply when it runs this longIts made me bitter
- The angry brain I wake up in is already here tonight
- I'm just so fucking angry right now I could I could literally fucking kill someone
- Angry art
- That would have made my day
- That's how I've been made to feel my whole life
- I'm angry and fed up
- That's on top of dealing with my depression.Its not easy and feeling quite frustrated because it's hard to move forward when people keep putting roadblocks in your way
- She seemed pissed off.I said you can sit there its fine with me.
- Well I made a connection on FaceTime after a lot of trouble.
- by the way I've always had this deep deep inner anger and dissatisfaction my whole life and for whatever reason I feel like I might almost be getting to the bottom of it
- what I heard last night got me so mad.
- —Just made a mistake on a website and lost alot of work and have to recode it by hand.
- dashed made no moneyno more dashing todatyhave no moneyhave no foodhave no water
- I made no fuss.
- Turning into a bitter, angry asshole who isnt afraid to tell you youre an asshat to your face
- BitterAngryReclusiveOutcastRejectedDid i mention bitter and angry???
- I have so much anger in me right now
- I'm not made for this world I don't belong here
- I just had a DoorDash to Thacher from Starbucks and was able to pick up my medication from Declan.And I got great news from Declan that made my day.
- that last riff made me create and share this
- I'm in one of those really angry moods where I just hate fucking everybody.
- Reservation madeIt said if they don't have it my reservation available they'll give me 50 bucks on the website
- Made $25Found that cool sandwich shop and got brought around to different parts of town I've never been before.
- Hey, GM.I DDshd this AM for 30 mins and made $16.
- I thought I knew alot about creativitiy and he made me head pop off a few times.
- —Today has been depressingly hard in my headThe idea of moving into a senior community...Wtf??Am I that fucking done?Made me literally hold back tears.
- did 2 hrs of dash 7-9 made $20 — now at starbucks trying to follow up on apps and apply to more
- I really want to be done with this existence and feel as though I am being punished by being made to stay alive
- Not only do I pay the ADD executive function tax, I pay the depression tax as wellJust sucks to work Twice as hard and twice as long to get to the same fucking placeSo frustrating.
- It's like Madge and Palmolive.
- Made $50 2.5 hours
- picture made me think offline
- Save myself more frustration
- —Todays vibe is...I refuse the play the coy games society requires to participate.Inauthenticity is something I cannot tolerate and the entire world is soaking in it — just ask Madge and Palmolive
- But I've also made no money because the meds made my head non-functional.
- literally made myself lol when I read back over that
- And note, she made me cry within 2 mins of listening.
- Weirdly I noticed that I didnt feel as angry.
- Its sad to think all I never made.
- It was reflective, and made me think about the warehouse of shit I have in my head that I forgot about.Example.
- It triggers frustration and anger.
- I'm really angry and doubt that will subside.
- I've had it for two years now, slow percolating anger.
- Made it to sunset for yet another day of soaking in it.😕☹️
- Frustrated with existence and being alive.I really dont want to be here doing this, but as I expressed, I sit in my shitpile so others arent bothered by me
- —last thing, someone gave me a tip on doordashI never get tipsIt made me cry 🥲
- I made $40
- Could have made 70-80 today.
- My two times at Art in the Park, any money I made paid for the space fees and the prints I sold.
- Jenicas rejection of me being a knife in the heart that has made me want to stay reclusive.
- this just makes my whole life take even longer to get back on track.--I was at basecamp 4 looking for a way to make a push for the summit.Now its as if I'm back at basecamp one, feeling frustrated.
- I envision days of talking in circles getting nowhereAnd frustration sets in and Im done, tuned out
- —Was hoping I made one sale on my website while away.
- Just like the dogs, no judgement on love—it was so nice to see.It made me want to do same thing sometime down road.Train a dog to be a therapy dog and go into hospitals like that.
- Haven't I suffered enuf?Do I need more sacrifices?How the fuck to move forward when EVERYTHING FEELS LIKE ITS AGAINST U?So frustratingPuts me in deep frustration and withdrawl from trying anymore
- Think I may just go walk in a circle outside, come back, and simply give up trying.Let it go.Nothing more frustrating than not being motivated, and pushing yourself to do thingsOnly to be thwarted.
- I feel no remorse right now.Like I could go find someone and fuck them up hard.Lots of rage inside.
- k, now to bed.planning on having another frustrating unproductive day.
- Thinking about going back to CA because being here is frustrating and not working.
- A reply to Chris Guillbeaus post i made.Its a few weeks and thats a YEAR AGO.still treading waterStill NO FUCKING END IN SIGHT 😭😭😭😭
- That shit got under her skin.I know this.I NEVER MADE THAT WOMAN DO ANYTHING SHE DIDNT WANT.She said in session "I decided to let it continue..."But I raped herso angry.
- Some funny shit.Managed to mention Madge from Palmolive and Genghis Khan in them.
- The fact that money keeps me from this makes me really fucking angry
- I haven't made money doing my kind of work for six months now.
- feeling screwed.looks like the payment for the car didn't go throughwill contact venmo in the morning about it.pissed — likely lose the car now.
- not angry, not mad — i'm beyond all that with regard to the marriage
- started working on trees website changes.made duplicate pages so I'm not killing what is live.
- now theyre good.ALso made me realize.No sound effects—unless ABSOLUTELY necessary.
- VERY ANGRYVERY DEPRESSEDJust fed up with this existence
- Just want to stare at the wall or floor.For whatever reason my depression decided to show up with a fucking fury and vengeance today.Not sure if I've ever felt it quite this strong.
- Got meds.Feel numb to outside world.Dissociated and angry
- —Titian was mixing Rose-madder.
- I mean a woman would literally have to come out and say it right to my face because I just would not see it or pick up on it Its fucking frustrating
- very hard to focuson anything at alleven distractionsOverthinking is a constant companion and frustration.
- sad realization hit me day before yesterdayI may never know what it feels like to not be anxious, depressed or some combination thereof.Literally made me instantly cry and lose my breath.
- I dont have any aspirations or goals, just sadness and a broken, empty, and frustrated heart and soul.Dr.
- Going to take my rage to AI, curious how it would replyMaybe call the rubber truck
- I saw your reaction and it made me think of upstairs your mom has it on the wall
- Imagine ur frustrationSorry u had it land in ur lap
- There is also madness and insanity, both of which I dance with at moments.Almost fell into a mental abyss yesterday.
- And my brain is off on some fucking parade, fight, anger, ragefest kicking my ass HARD in my head.
- Hola!, imagine you are there by now.I hope you made it safely.
- Tree made a good point that some vids went offline and then her site has a hole in it.Makes sense to me.--Last bit.The sentence up top in blue:Get your FREE, New Zealand, Australia, and Fiji e-book.
- By the way today tonight I made a recommitment and double down on my meditation practice.
- Let me know if this reads OK.I dont want to stoke any anger.
- Made me sad to have it end, but happy I had that experience even tho a broken heart.Actually felt love I was giving come back to me equally, if not more.
- Actually I'm going to go walk around the ponds in 5 mins.Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage.
- https://open.spotify.com/track/6GtX0jaNL8IjVQfrDBx81z?si=KUoiZWjXQHe8Vc7R1X293w&context=spotify:search:despite+all+my+rage
- I dont see things the way others do because of my experience.I have a jaded+angry side I keep largely hidden, and when rage builds up it can show up.
- AI made me cry
- They made an app for me and Darrell 🤣🤣And love the name:MumbleNote
- this is from Madison Square Garden
- then try to focus on something else.this is why I thought I was in another dimension.none of it made sense
- I also sent you your separate email, and exact copy/paste with links to the MSA and the overview vid I made.Let me know what you think.😊
- I'm not crying.more angrybecause she did me wrongshe did our marriage wrongshe did life wrong
- and that she's forgiven her brothers and father, who have all made me look like a preschooler with "sins"
- really angry tonight
- the universe made me see this and send it...
- —Good Seth today:Made me think of you.....Effort and valueWe expend effort.We create value.It's easy to get confused about which one we're going to ultimately be compensated for.
- she was FURIOUS with me, over nothingI didn't show up for dinner, but made no promises that I was going to be back at any specific time.
- I havent been this ANGRY since a long time ago in California
- note: whenever someone says to me " You made me xyz"I pipe right the hell up and stop them RIGHT there.I didn't make them do ANYTHING.
- ah just made think I need some beastie boys
- made good progress on my slideshow redesign today.Google Slides has some limitations and need to see if there are plugins that can help
- Im frustrated, angry, and exhausted thru my bone marrow.
- —I forwarded an email to you where he tells the story of a kid who made 2 apps.
- Tired, frustrated, and alone.The catch 22 of not letting myself allow ppl in my life because i dont have the means is a slow death by isolation.
- Angry.Negative energy.
- Apparently thats a "thing" for some women.She made over 500,000 last yearShe had a great approach to getting traffic.
- Liked "I think we made it a while ago - just need to reconcile with it as we could change our minds and stay here "
- The best way I can describe it would be like an energy thingI pick up on bad juju, suspicion, anger, checked the fuck out.
- and then couldnt stop thinking about it.Was entirely distracting.Made the remainder feel like sitting in a chair in the dark with my headphones on.Ultimately I ended up texting u guys.
- —I still have anger, but I'm not going to go on a rager.
- Thing is I can feel my anger now.
- I am angry as all fuck right now, but feel cool as a cucumber deep inside.This is a really nice feeling
- Its being angry without it lighting you on fire simultaneously.A ruthless, cool kind of anger.One that never gives up until it gets what it wants.Delicious.
- lack of resources sucksits what stops me from plugging into the snow globemakes me super resentful
- today, doing divorce stuff, along with this being the second day after a treatment has mad this a particularly miserable day.Add rain.Add loneliness.Add existensial dread to keep doing this.
- Having an afternoon where my anxiety is way high.I can feel my entire nervous system shaking inside.I didnt have this after ketamine treatments.It made my internal nervous vigilance shut off.
- ur mom made it seem like ur working until 10pm then heading over
- Oddly wishful.Am I working hard?!?Really??If I was, wouldn't I see some kind of result I could point to?Being alive is frustrating
- —GM Feedback....Also Let your mom know I've watered the plants and made sure they're doing OK
- Frustrated not having resources to live.
- Frustration = raging anger where I leave ppl dead
- Having to sit around in that headspace while the clock ticks away and you watch the sands of time run through your fingers is incredibly frustrating
- —exiledthats what it feels like to be me.If you've never been exiled, well then go make someone so angry they kick you out of your family.#wtaf
- Endlessly frustrating.I keep waking up to the same day, with a different date on the calendar.
- so angry I could kill with my bare hands
- I'll let him know I can anonymize the data points so they're made up.
- I kind of pissed her off but he pissed me off that she told me I was yelling.Went so far as telling me my tone has changed.
- not sure if you heard from your mom or tree, but I pissed her off on the drive back from ketamine on MondayI shut down when I got back and slept until Tuesday at 1pm-yesterday.
- Good times.I need a new place to be an angry hermit.
- Just stopped for today.Made it to Salina Kansas.
- Isolation like Colorado, but no baggage and triggers there.This is a nightmare made real.
- In a place and space I don't want to be, being asked to do things I'd rather not do.I have no privacy, or personal space here.Fucking maddening.
- The one I could have made a pass at but chose not to hurt her and stay platonic.
- No one gets it.Its frustrating that no one understands me.