[00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:16.680]   I have some something that's been on my mind recently and that is taken on too much.
[00:00:16.680 --> 00:00:29.000]   Now as I speak, I am working to get my depression in check.
[00:00:29.000 --> 00:00:38.180]   I'm still dealing with it on a daily basis, it's persistent.
[00:00:38.180 --> 00:00:45.200]   I don't know if I've mentioned this before but I'm highly functional depressive, primarily
[00:00:45.200 --> 00:00:54.440]   because I've had it for 40 years and it's a disability that I've lived with all that
[00:00:54.440 --> 00:01:04.040]   time, just you can't see it.
[00:01:04.040 --> 00:01:09.440]   I'm not in a wheelchair, I'm not missing a limb, you know there's not a visual way to
[00:01:09.440 --> 00:01:20.040]   see what's up.
[00:01:20.040 --> 00:01:28.960]   So in one of the things I've been attempting, not attempting I have been doing it, is having
[00:01:28.960 --> 00:01:50.480]   projects to work on
[00:01:50.480 --> 00:01:59.560]   the project to help keep my brain engaged on interesting things.
[00:01:59.560 --> 00:02:11.200]   I have two, maybe a third AI, I've got three AI projects that are on the middle of progress.
[00:02:11.200 --> 00:02:24.180]   I've got podcasts, the tutorial series, the transmission X audio series, which is, it's
[00:02:24.180 --> 00:02:36.600]   real life but it's presented in a different creative kind of way and, oh goodness.
[00:02:36.600 --> 00:02:45.520]   For websites, I mean you can kind of hear it as I'm spelling it out, it's too much for
[00:02:45.520 --> 00:02:54.120]   a normal person, normal as in the neurotypicals.
[00:02:54.120 --> 00:03:03.800]   Neurotypical would be challenged at managing all that, let alone.
[00:03:03.800 --> 00:03:15.360]   But alone somebody dealing with as much depression as I do on a daily basis.
[00:03:15.360 --> 00:03:25.840]   So something that has come up is, oh the doggy, I don't know if the mic is picking
[00:03:25.840 --> 00:03:33.560]   up the doggy, it has to be, he's pretty damn loud.
[00:03:33.560 --> 00:03:59.720]   So
[00:03:59.720 --> 00:04:12.200]   what I find happening is that I've started too many things and in doing that, I've created
[00:04:12.200 --> 00:04:20.120]   a situation where I can't finish anything because I've got too many things that are
[00:04:20.120 --> 00:04:28.800]   halfway through and I keep having to bounce from one to the other.
[00:04:28.800 --> 00:04:39.000]   I don't know if that's discipline thing or a boredom thing or I'm not sure if it's conscious
[00:04:39.000 --> 00:04:45.520]   or subconscious calling the shots on that.
[00:04:45.520 --> 00:04:58.480]   But what I'm getting at is I'm going to switch it up and pair things down and maybe two active
[00:04:58.480 --> 00:05:03.240]   projects and the rest just sit.
[00:05:03.240 --> 00:05:10.680]   That way, should I get bored with one, I can jump to the other and that happens.
[00:05:10.680 --> 00:05:16.360]   If you have enough different interests, you get bored in one and you need to switch it
[00:05:16.360 --> 00:05:17.360]   up.
[00:05:17.360 --> 00:05:21.320]   I do that with work as well, calling it projects.
[00:05:21.320 --> 00:05:27.600]   You'll kind of hit a dead end or whatever, just switch it up.
[00:05:27.600 --> 00:05:33.960]   So that's what I'm going to do here because I've been feeling overwhelmed, not able to
[00:05:33.960 --> 00:05:45.440]   get a handle on projects, but also unable to just get a handle on living day to day.
[00:05:45.440 --> 00:05:49.240]   Right now it's existing day to day.
[00:05:49.240 --> 00:06:02.040]   I haven't lived in over five years, so I'm looking forward to the possibility of getting
[00:06:02.040 --> 00:06:10.120]   totally back on my feet and doing things I want to do, hanging out with people I want
[00:06:10.120 --> 00:06:18.080]   to do things that make me happy.
[00:06:18.080 --> 00:06:26.200]   All right, with that, we're out, be good, word.