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Her reactions, like allowing me to take off her pants, pulling a pillow over her head because she likes it dark. And soon after I got out of bed for a minute to disrobe. She didn’t move, had the pillow over her face and head, and could have gotten out of bed, or got up and told me to leave, and I would have. I mean look at how long I’ve waited, years, to have triathlon in the rear view and I can finally spend time with her. But no, I’m getting tossed out of my marriage because why? I was mentally ill? I needed help and refused. Well then have an intervention. Don’t let me go deeper and do nothing. All I wanted was her to acknowledge I existed and cared about me. THATS ALL I WANTED TO HEAR BECAUSE DEPRESSION WAS TRYING TO CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE. I was incapacitated and incapable to self advocate for regular Bert. He’s back and now has to sacrifice his family and wife. None of it makes sense 😭😭😭😭 Ok off to bed big presentation tomorrow for work. 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Talking physical and emotional violence, breaking shit all over the house going on a rage fest. I would never bring that kind of suffering to those I love, least of all her I feel, while not perfect, I’ve been a good husband and father to our boys. I am human, and they make mistakes. I’m feeling compassion for others suffering and their inability to get beyond it. This past year I got past some suffering. I forgave my father for all his shit. I feel compassion for what he went thru being big brother to 5 little brothers and sisters at the age of 13 after your dad got sick and died. No one did counseling back then. He’s carried his demons all his life and to some degree still does. I think he’s got alot of unresolved issues he may not know about. My point being, after all he did to me, my mom, and Russ, all the suffering and lifetime of mental troubles he loaded us all with. I stopped being angry this past visit and finally saw a human being who has carried his demons all his life and never been able to take them on. It’s sad because my dad would have had a vastly different life if his father had lived, and I think that haunts him. I feel deep compassion and sadness for him. I also love him as a flawed human being - which is like us all. I feel deep compassion, sadness, and remorse, guilt and shame for causing Liz suffering. I in turn have unleashed a self hatred like no other while trying to find a way off the Death Star. My self inflicted suffering these past 18 months have been brutal. I’ve been back and there again in my mind so many times, each time focusing on another angle or perspective in my quest to understand just what I did to Liz. I feel that I’ve studied it well and truly understand it’s impact. I feel lucky that I can see and understand this. It truly makes me happy that I can look at something from all angles and take it all in. 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Edited 1 minute, 6 seconds later | Filed for Divorce this morning. At 2661 Pierpont Boulevard, near the school and Marina Park. Here until the 25th Leaving California soon. Would be nice to see you before I leave Be well, Bert
Edited later | Filed for Divorce this morning. At 2661 Pierpont Boulevard, near the school and Marina Park. Here until the 25th Leaving California soon. Would be nice to see you before I leave Be well, Bert
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