Jun 09, 2018 9:34:08 AM (Read by you after 30 minutes, 47 seconds) +18057981295

Hola from Menorca! 🇪🇸 hope you're well Bert 🏝🌸

Jun 09, 2018 10:09:55 AM Me

Hola Jodi! Wow that looks spectacular.Didnt know that was an island 🌴 enjoy your stay. Best wishes from Ojai!

Jan 22, 2019 2:41:03 PM (Read by you after 9 minutes, 40 seconds) +18057981295

Hi Bert, I’m in LA for a few days with my mom who’s in hospital. Not sure when I’m back in ojai. I fly to Al on Monday then back the following week

Jan 22, 2019 2:52:55 PM Me

Hi! Hope all is ok for your mom. Sending good wishes! Let me know when you’re in Ojai. Would be great to catch up with you. Wishing you and Jason all the best on your new adventure :-)

Jan 22, 2019 3:11:57 PM (Read by you after 19 hours, 46 minutes, 6 seconds) +18057981295

ThAnks. Today was his first day of work. He’s in such a great place.

Jan 23, 2019 10:58:37 AM (Read by them after 2 minutes, 21 seconds) Me

Really glad to hear that. Always cool when people find a niche.

May 01, 2021 10:44:09 AM +18057981295

Hey Bert, LinkedIn says it’s your birthday. Happy birthday buddy! I hope you get to enjoy… and hopefully spend time with people. Here’s to celebrating you!!! Cheers from Alabama… Jodi & Jason

May 03, 2021 10:54:33 AM (Read by them after 1 hour, 44 minutes, 38 seconds) Me

Thanks Jodi! Hope you and Jason are doing well and staying safe! All is well in Ojai

Jul 12, 2024 3:14:35 PM (Read by you after 3 hours, 20 minutes, 15 seconds) +18057981295

Hey Bert, Just checking in with you. How are you? I haven’t forgotten about your resume… just getting back to my computer

Jul 13, 2024 9:46:36 AM (Read by you after 25 minutes, 50 seconds) +18057981295

I’ll be up in ojai for Scott Coady’s memorial July19-21 Want to meet up?

Jul 13, 2024 11:21:43 AM (Read by them after 2 seconds) Me

Hi! oh yes, that would be super cool I would love to. I start my sit in Ventura on the 20th 😊 I’ve been down there the past 2 days by surfers point / seaward area because of the Ojai heat. I have a question to ask. I have an interview on Monday for what looks to be a cool remote gig with an EdTech company. I’m wondering if you or maybe Jason are connected to anyone inside this company through LinkedIn, etc. Its a long shot but you may know someone who knows one of them directly which would be super cool.

Jul 13, 2024 11:21:43 AM (Read by them after 2 seconds) Me

https://www.finalforms.com/

Jul 13, 2024 11:22:17 AM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Here is the specific role

Jul 13, 2024 11:22:18 AM Me

https://finalforms.rippling-ats.com/job/817354/lead-product-ui-ux-designer

Jul 13, 2024 5:14:27 PM +18057981295

Love the job! Super cool position and company. In your resume, you say”over 30 years experience…” Some of the folks interviewing you may be 30 at a start up… Makes you sound old. Maybe reduce it to, over 10 years experience… and if they ask, you can go into how long. Agism sucks

Jul 13, 2024 5:20:08 PM Me

😂

Jul 13, 2024 5:20:29 PM Me

I so know it. I Actually have to change that to say I have decades of experience

Jul 13, 2024 5:20:57 PM Me

That means more than 20 years and there are a lot of those folks. I just have a little bit more time behind the wheel than they do.

Jul 13, 2024 5:22:23 PM Me

I actually scratch my head when I look at some of the VPP level people running Design at some companies people with 10 to 12 years experience. If this were brain surgery, I would much rather have the human who’s been doing it for 30 years than somebody who’s been doing it a decade. It doesn’t matter what the profession is there is an intangible and unquantifiable value that age and experience bring to bear on anything

Jul 13, 2024 5:25:19 PM Me

To put it simply convenience and lack of friction win every time.

Jul 13, 2024 5:26:14 PM Me

I can articulate the convenience and lack of friction I provide :-)

Jul 13, 2024 5:26:57 PM Me

| Ps. I’m sorry to make your phone blow up with this incest Aunt texting I will stop. I am going to be online shortly. And can send you my latest résumé that has everything updated.
Edited 19 seconds later | Ps. I’m sorry to make your phone blow up with this incesant texting I will stop. I am going to be online shortly. And can send you my latest résumé that has everything updated.

Jul 13, 2024 6:56:38 PM (Read by you after 59 seconds) +18057981295

Sounds good. Just finished driving. I’ll be back on my computer tomorrow

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Jul 20, 2024 9:29:16 PM Me

I’m here in the Pierpont District of Ventura one row of houses away from the sand with my new best friend miss Ellie. She’s all bark no bite a gentle giant of a lady. She’s about 70 pounds solid and just great disposition.

Jul 20, 2024 9:30:27 PM Me

This is the sitting area in the front of the house. Instead of having a front yard, there’s a hedge that walls it off and creates this great little space to chill, which I’m gonna do Wi-Fi from here a good chunk of the week. 😊

Jul 20, 2024 9:30:28 PM Me

Very grateful 🙏

Jul 20, 2024 9:30:31 PM Me

thank you for making this happen

Jul 21, 2024 1:50:58 PM (Read by you after 31 minutes, 12 seconds) +18057981295

| Very, I am beyond happy
Edited 8 seconds later | Bert, I am beyond happy

Jul 21, 2024 1:51:37 PM (Read by you after 30 minutes, 33 seconds) +18057981295

What a beautiful oasis to land in. And to have a little buddy to keep you company. So sweet

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Jul 21, 2024 2:24:25 PM Me

I slept till 9 AM which I haven’t done in months likewise for sleeping in a bed. It’s sunny and absolutely idyllic along the coast today. About to take a little nap alongside the dog and then go to the market. Again so grateful ☺️

Jul 21, 2024 2:27:41 PM (Read by you after 1 hour, 43 minutes, 9 seconds) +18057981295

Best news ever!

Jul 21, 2024 2:29:57 PM (Read by you after 1 hour, 40 minutes, 53 seconds) +18057981295

Is it possible to line these up?!? Remember to send me your new resume and jobs you’re considering. I have time this week and would love to play with the AI tools. Working on my friend Debbie’s business offering too. It’s very satisfying to have a project that I might be helping on… Again, thrilled to know you’re in this space

Jul 21, 2024 5:55:57 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

It could be possible, but right now there doesnt seem to be a string that line up. I had one that started the day before this one ended and thought I could just make the transition work, alas she found someone else. These folks here like me and already booked me again in August 😛

Jul 21, 2024 5:56:45 PM Me

I’ll round up my materials, links, and such and send you a place it all sits. BTW — do you and / or Jason use Notion?

Jul 21, 2024 6:05:20 PM (Read by you after 1 minute, 19 seconds) +18057981295

So happy about the August house. Jason says he uses Notion. We both use Evernote. He imported Evernote to Notion. 🤦🏽‍♀️

Jul 22, 2024 1:02:24 PM Me

Cool, good to know about Notion. Do you know of Thomas Frank? He’s a Notion Nerd with Soooo many great tutorials. I bought one of his templates called Ultimate Brain and its amazing. With automation and AI I’ve not even scratched the surface of whats possible.

Jul 22, 2024 1:02:39 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Thomas Frank

Jul 22, 2024 1:04:44 PM Me

His template takes a bit of Tiago Fortes “Second Brain” idea (Projects, Areas, Resources, Archives) and implements as much or as little as you like. He also has a David Allen GTD style dashboard as well. What is so cool is you can build custom Dashboards for each and every person who needs one, but all be working with and on the SAME DATA REALTIME 🤯

Jul 22, 2024 1:04:44 PM (Read by them after 2 seconds) Me

Thomas Frank

Jul 22, 2024 1:05:22 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Here’s Tiagos site if not familiar with his work:

Jul 22, 2024 1:05:24 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Forte Labs

Jul 26, 2024 12:38:50 PM (Read by you after 1 hour, 27 minutes, 35 seconds) +18057981295

Heya, I had a chance to look at your resume & your update. I gave some thoughts, but I’m no expert in this field… Happy to share my big fat opinion tho

Jul 26, 2024 2:06:57 PM Me

Cool! Thank you 🙏 I’ll be online for a bit this afternoon and will take a look

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Sep 11, 2024 5:03:39 PM (Read by you after 14 minutes, 22 seconds) +18057981295

Heya Bert, I replied to you on one of the social media chats, but wanted to check in here to let you know I’ll be in Ojai for a celebration of life gathering on Saturday at 3 pm. (For Megan B)

Sep 11, 2024 5:21:24 PM Me

hi Jodi ! thanks for reaching out. Sorry to hear your visit is for someones passing, my condolences. I’m between Ojai and Ventura alot, I catch as many sunsets as I can, but for sure can make a time to connect—1000% Its been more than 5 years since I’ve seen you. Maybe right before you and Jason moved out of Ojai. Anyhow, my schedule is flexible. Situation still the same.

Sep 11, 2024 5:21:31 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Been working on my stuff.

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Sep 11, 2024 5:22:51 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

New homepage about to go live. feel free to hammer it. I have not attachment to anything — you know how I roll with regard to design. Somethings not right, lets make it so. 😊

Sep 11, 2024 5:22:55 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Bert Mahoney — I design reasoned solutions to complex ideas

Sep 11, 2024 5:23:03 PM +18057981295

I’ve been seeing your sunset photos on insta, they’re great

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Sep 11, 2024 5:23:39 PM Me

previously, or online now, you click to go see case studies. I want them up front. No clicking

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Sep 11, 2024 5:24:25 PM (Read by you after 2 seconds) +18057981295

I’ll check out the website next I’ll be driving through town with Debbie Godfrey on Saturday, driving from mammoth -> ojai -> pasadena. It’s a big drive day

Sep 11, 2024 5:25:13 PM (Read by you after 1 minute, 10 seconds) +18057981295

Fuck yeah, fancy!!!

Sep 11, 2024 5:26:02 PM (Read by you after 21 seconds) +18057981295

On it now

Sep 11, 2024 5:26:27 PM Me

cool!

Sep 11, 2024 5:27:57 PM (Read by you after 11 minutes, 6 seconds) +18057981295

You may be the coolest person I know

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Sep 11, 2024 5:28:02 PM (Read by you after 11 minutes, 1 second) +18057981295

This site is amazing

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Sep 11, 2024 5:29:19 PM (Read by you after 9 minutes, 44 seconds) +18057981295

Like the “multi-decade career”. Nice. Long enough, and I’m not old yet!

Sep 11, 2024 5:39:53 PM Me

Ive shyed away from saying 30 years mainly because that’s longer than some people in the company have been alive

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Sep 11, 2024 5:40:00 PM Me

In any company

Sep 11, 2024 5:40:18 PM +18057981295

I don’t understand most of what you do/the graphics, but it all looks good, very convincing, and visually fabulous

Sep 11, 2024 5:41:57 PM ⇲ Me

It’s pretty simple. I talk to people, have a conversation, get some information out of them. And then turn that into something a developer can look at and go, aha I know exactly what to build here And typically they have a questionnaire to for clarification, but I speak Developer in multiple languages so it’s not hard at all

Sep 11, 2024 5:42:26 PM ⇲ Me

The thing is it’s next to impossible to communicate that in a bullet. The next iteration is going to include video of me literally saying it in the video

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Sep 11, 2024 5:43:59 PM ⇲ Me

I had an interview about an hour and a half ago with a company in Colorado. I described myself as a digital Swiss Army knife. I can build you a website I can run an email campaign with Landing pages in analytics I can get your idea turned into a mobile app I can edit video and Adobe premier I can use Adobe after effects. I know how to get audio in and out of Adobe audition to edit and publish podcasts. I know how to set up live streams if you wanted to seminar or online class. I mean there is literally almost Nothing I haven’t at least tried digitally

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Sep 11, 2024 5:40:34 PM +18057981295

Agreed on the age thing. No need to bring that into the convo

Sep 11, 2024 5:41:57 PM ⇱ Me

It’s pretty simple. I talk to people, have a conversation, get some information out of them. And then turn that into something a developer can look at and go, aha I know exactly what to build here And typically they have a questionnaire to for clarification, but I speak Developer in multiple languages so it’s not hard at all
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Sep 11, 2024 5:42:26 PM ⇱ Me

The thing is it’s next to impossible to communicate that in a bullet. The next iteration is going to include video of me literally saying it in the video

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Sep 11, 2024 5:43:59 PM ⇱ Me

I had an interview about an hour and a half ago with a company in Colorado. I described myself as a digital Swiss Army knife. I can build you a website I can run an email campaign with Landing pages in analytics I can get your idea turned into a mobile app I can edit video and Adobe premier I can use Adobe after effects. I know how to get audio in and out of Adobe audition to edit and publish podcasts. I know how to set up live streams if you wanted to seminar or online class. I mean there is literally almost Nothing I haven’t at least tried digitally

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Sep 11, 2024 5:44:11 PM (Read by you after 13 seconds) +18057981295

Gotcha. Just curious, have you communicated with head hunters? I keep getting them in my LinkedIn feed

Sep 11, 2024 5:44:52 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

How did they reply?

Sep 11, 2024 5:45:12 PM Me

| Weirdly no. There was a period of time early on I was getting a few contacts, but now no. In my specific field there is a glut of talent out there right now you’ve got Rockstars from Amazon and Facebook that do my kind of thing that have been in those companies for 15 years. Other companies people that worked at enterprise I have not
Edited 23 seconds later | Weirdly no. There was a period of time early on I was getting a few contacts, but now no. In my specific field there is a glut of talent out there right now you’ve got Rockstars from Amazon and Facebook that do my kind of thing that have been in those companies for 15 years. Other companies people that worked at enterprise, I have not

Sep 11, 2024 5:46:42 PM Me

Hilton Global interviewed me to run their mobile app, globally. Of course there are people that do precisely nothing but mobile app maintenance, but I was excited to be one of a handful of people out of over 400 applications

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Sep 11, 2024 5:47:05 PM +18057981295

Very impressive

Sep 11, 2024 5:47:43 PM Me

The interview today went really well it’s for a tiny company, and at that scale I can make enormous impact simply because I can do so much and my capability to juggle multiple projects helps to

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Sep 11, 2024 5:48:00 PM +18057981295

Oooh that’s encouraging

Sep 11, 2024 5:48:09 PM Me

And I’ve been under deadline pressure that would create diamonds

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Sep 11, 2024 5:48:52 PM Me

I’m kind of bummed I’ve had so many ideas during this period of time. Creative things I’ve wanted to pursue but because of circumstances I just don’t have the time or place to find in my life to make them happen

Sep 11, 2024 5:49:37 PM (Read by you after 2 seconds) +18057981295

I had a big learning curves when I worked with the Air Force… going to large scale from David Allen Co/ojai boutique mentality I hope the small company can see what a valuable player you would be for them

Sep 11, 2024 5:51:29 PM Me

Like I tell everyone. I’ve been in my situation now for common close to 600 days. I expect tomorrow to be just like today and the day before and the day before that. However one day I will wake up and the day will appear the same. For the most part, be like any other day. However, one day something will Shift and I will go to bed in a completely different place than I woke up in

Sep 11, 2024 5:52:00 PM Me

I just dont know what day that is And therein lies the mystery

Sep 11, 2024 5:52:05 PM Me

😁

Sep 11, 2024 5:53:28 PM Me

I’ve turned into a heavy duty meditator. Myself awareness is ridiculous. More like hyper aware to the point where you see things that are illogical and drive my Spock brain crazy

Sep 11, 2024 5:54:07 PM Me

Anyhow, if you have any feedback on on my website I would totally appreciate it. I did the writing, and I am really not a writer so I’ve done my level best

Sep 11, 2024 5:54:45 PM Me

Oh I filed paperwork last month. Its a real thing

Sep 11, 2024 5:55:06 PM Me

Sick of my life in a liminal space

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Sep 11, 2024 5:56:14 PM ⇲ Me

Between my old life and whatever is ahead of me

Sep 11, 2024 5:55:24 PM +18057981295

Sounds like you’ve found the pony… 600 days is no joke Your writing on the website is great. Conversational, professional sounds like you know what you’re talking about

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Sep 11, 2024 5:55:39 PM Me

My photo on Insta of the red chairs is from the Ventura County courthouse the day I filed my paperwork

Sep 11, 2024 5:55:57 PM (Read by you after 2 seconds) +18057981295

What kind of paperwork?

Sep 11, 2024 5:56:27 PM ⇲ Me

Divorce

Sep 11, 2024 5:56:14 PM ⇱ Me

Between my old life and whatever is ahead of me
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Sep 11, 2024 5:56:27 PM ⇱ Me

Divorce
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Sep 11, 2024 5:56:33 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

Gotcha.

Sep 11, 2024 5:57:34 PM +18057981295

Adulting is no joke.

Sep 11, 2024 5:57:43 PM Me

Sux but I didn't want it and was Willing to put in any and all work to heal but you need two to tango She’s the one that asked for it and she’s the one that wanted it but never filed paperwork. I asked last summer where was the paperwork. I waited a year I think I’ve waited long enough

Sep 11, 2024 5:58:06 PM Me

Even with that there’s still surprise when that paperwork shows up delivered by the Ventura County Sheriff

Sep 11, 2024 5:58:24 PM +18057981295

You are doing big things. And you sound very aware of yourself

Sep 11, 2024 5:58:36 PM Me

My oldest son has essentially disowned me, called me a bum to my face multiple times and double flipped me off as I drove away the last time I saw him

Sep 11, 2024 5:59:12 PM +18057981295

Fuuuuuuu…. That all sounds hard.

Sep 11, 2024 5:59:38 PM Me

My two younger guys are OK and have a good relationship with me. You may feel old when you read this my boys are Aidan 24 at home Declan 21 at home Darragh 18 @ Lewis and clark

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Sep 11, 2024 5:59:54 PM Me

All adults

Sep 11, 2024 6:00:26 PM Me

It’s funny I feel more like a contemporary of theirs than I do of people my age

Sep 11, 2024 6:00:31 PM +18057981295

And this all sounds complicated And some family members may not be able to make space for complicated…

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Sep 11, 2024 6:00:41 PM Me

So spot on

Sep 11, 2024 6:01:37 PM Me

| My cousin Darrell noted that when my aunt and uncle divorced some 30+ years ago his oldest brother and sister went that shit crazy because it blew up the concept of family for them and there was a lot of hate going on for a while but that is all water under the bridge now
Edited 9 seconds later | My cousin Darrell noted that when my aunt and uncle divorced some 30+ years ago his oldest brother and sister went bat shit crazy because it blew up the concept of family for them and there was a lot of hate going on for a while but that is all water under the bridge now

Sep 11, 2024 6:01:56 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

Yesterday was my birthday Age is funny. Grief is tricky My dad died in May and I’m still feeling feelings… so many different kinds.. sadness, relief, anger, nothingness

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Sep 11, 2024 6:02:32 PM ⇲ Me

I can completely relate to a kaleidoscope of emotions

Sep 11, 2024 6:03:49 PM ⇲ Me

I hope you celebrated your day well with Jason!

Sep 11, 2024 6:02:13 PM Me

He told me that overtime Aidan will come around. Right now he doesn’t have all the information is only making his decisions off of very little

Sep 11, 2024 6:02:32 PM ⇱ Me

I can completely relate to a kaleidoscope of emotions
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Sep 11, 2024 6:02:58 PM Me

They come and go, varying and duration and intensity, but it will die down it just takes time

Sep 11, 2024 6:03:49 PM ⇱ Me

I hope you celebrated your day well with Jason!
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Sep 11, 2024 6:04:44 PM Me

Yeah life gets tricky as you get older and your parents pass on. Mine have not although my father is getting a peacemaker put in next week. He has aged dramatically in this last year from a physical standpoint and his ability to be mobile. And he’s also Gotten a foggy mind now not able to remember things as easily

Sep 11, 2024 6:05:08 PM Me

Everybody marches forward and we take each other’s place

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Sep 11, 2024 6:05:11 PM +18057981295

Yes, people try to make sense of life, and everyone does it differently 20 year olds are still experiencing brain growth… they’re not done cooking yet My birthday was grand. Jason was in DC for a bike trip. I’m in mammoth with Debbie. It all works out. Making the best of every day, and trying not to get hung up on society norms ;)

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Sep 11, 2024 6:07:34 PM ⇲ Me

I am all for different. I have had to essentially live in the shadows of society while at the same time appearing to be a vibrant member of it. When you’re unemployed and homeless, you don’t feel like you are a part of what everyone else is doing. I don’t have a space like everybody else to go to at night, nor do I have some responsibility to attend to every day that gives me resources to take care of my life. Not having that for as long as I have brings things into focus and creates an awareness that you don’t get unless you’ve lived in this unique slice of society from this perspective

Sep 11, 2024 6:07:34 PM ⇱ Me

I am all for different. I have had to essentially live in the shadows of society while at the same time appearing to be a vibrant member of it. When you’re unemployed and homeless, you don’t feel like you are a part of what everyone else is doing. I don’t have a space like everybody else to go to at night, nor do I have some responsibility to attend to every day that gives me resources to take care of my life. Not having that for as long as I have brings things into focus and creates an awareness that you don’t get unless you’ve lived in this unique slice of society from this perspective
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Sep 11, 2024 6:08:06 PM Me

| Thing is I’ve always related to the nerds in the outsiders my whole life ever since grade school and getting picked last in gym class
Edited 9 seconds later | Thing is I’ve always related to the nerds and the outsiders my whole life ever since grade school and getting picked last in gym class

Sep 11, 2024 6:09:28 PM Me

Thing is now I’m gray haired grey bearded blue-eyed lean older adult single man that looks in a lot better shape than all the other men 55 years old in this country. I have, as they say, flipped the script 🤣🤣

Sep 11, 2024 6:14:23 PM (Read by you after 20 minutes, 52 seconds) +18057981295

Nice And Rough… that sounds like it’s so much work, to find work, to find places to stay, all of it You sound positive and healthy I am impressed. And will keep trying to find ways to help

Sep 11, 2024 6:23:28 PM (Read by you after 11 minutes, 47 seconds) +18057981295

Hey, I am headed out now. Talk to you soon Want to brainstorm more house sitting?

Nov 23, 2024 10:51:33 AM (Read by you after 1 minute, 53 seconds) +18057981295

Hey Bert Just checking in to say hi and hear how you’re doing in Colorado Hope you’re well

Nov 28, 2024 3:26:27 PM (Read by you after 4 hours, 30 minutes, 33 seconds) +18057981295

Happy thanksgiving my friend. I hope you are well. I’m grateful for you in my life

Nov 28, 2024 7:58:30 PM Me

Thanks Jodi 🙂i hope u are well too. Doing ok. Missing my boys mostly

Nov 28, 2024 7:58:41 PM Me

Happy Thanksgiving 🦃

Dec 20, 2024 11:50:15 AM (Read by you after 3 hours, 4 minutes, 3 seconds) +18057981295

Hey Bert I was just walking around and you popped into my mind. How are you doing? I’m ok. First Christmas without my dad. And my sister is out of town. Learning how to be in this new way. The weather is good, gorgeous really. So that makes it easy to be out for a walk Just sharing, hope it’s not too much. Hope you’re well

Dec 23, 2024 4:58:44 PM Me

Hi Jodi really nice to hear from you. I’m sorry you’re being challenged by your situation, but your sharp awareness of whats up will help you get beyond what youre feeling. It will wax and wane but intensity will dial down each time it returns. I am not well if I’m being honest. I know its hard for others to hear but I cant pretend I’m ok anymore and stuff things down, eat my opinions , and just push onward. Its what has brought me to where I am. Not seeing my boys for 3 holiday seasons in a row now. So thats on my mind too. And unemployment still, and living with a relative for 2 months now. Nothings changed since leaving California except I’m far more isolated here. I dont know anyone in Colorado except 5 people, all family. I’m not the kind of guy who interrupts people to introduce and inject myself in their life. Besides who wants to meet and hangout with someone depressed?!? Depressed people are no fun, I know one 😁 Spent all day in bed sleeping because being awake is too much. simply sucks. Apologies if my reply worries you, I’d rather be straight honest so ppl dont guess. Wishing you a peaceful and restful holiday! And Jason too! 😁 Be well and I so appreciate getting your text. Means alot

Dec 31, 2024 7:53:45 PM (Read by them after 5 seconds) Me

hi Jodi “Merry New Year!”

Dec 31, 2024 7:54:26 PM (Read by you after 6 seconds) +18057981295

Happy happy :)

Dec 31, 2024 7:55:22 PM +18057981295

Walked to the market, bought some cookies & blueberries. Jasons working on a wall calendar. we’re just happy to be home. Nice and easy I hope you’re well

Dec 31, 2024 8:06:36 PM (Read by them after 7 seconds) Me

Fer me… Sitting alone solo. Been in Colorado 2 mos. and nothings different over here. Been working on some art and setting it up to sell it. Been building something for a few weeks now. Big social media push will start later tonight maybe or tomorrow.

Dec 31, 2024 8:06:53 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I’ve been getting poorer. Lost phone service, and the car repo man will be here within the next week. I can’t give what I dont have — quite a humbling experience basically getting stripped of my old life and everything but the clothes on my back 😊 Depression has taken it all away. I’m still here showing up everyday pushing. every. day. no. breaks. been. months. lost. count. 😛 FYI I’m likely checking into a depression inpatient clinic within the next week.

Dec 31, 2024 8:07:34 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I’ve been stuck since 2018 and nothing works, nothing gets better. Have contended with suicidal ideation more than I care to admit. Ample opportunities to tap out, and have wanted to dozens if not 100 or more times this year alone. I have found there are VERY FEW PEOPLE that can talk with me about this. Primarily because I’ve been soaking in it for years and the “psychic stench” is so unmistakable I can smell it myself. So I’m going to see the most hardcore depression docs out here I can find.

Dec 31, 2024 8:08:16 PM Me

So, basically I have no where to go but up.

Dec 31, 2024 8:08:19 PM Me

😊

Dec 31, 2024 8:08:46 PM +18057981295

I’m so glad to hear you’re taking those steps, it’s huge. And I’m sorry you’re going through it

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Dec 31, 2024 8:08:53 PM +18057981295

I am rooting for you

Dec 31, 2024 8:09:04 PM Me

thanks

Dec 31, 2024 8:09:11 PM +18057981295

Not an easy thing you’re experiencing

Dec 31, 2024 8:09:22 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I’ll likely blog/vlog it all

Dec 31, 2024 8:09:33 PM +18057981295

I am so glad you’re here. You’re an honest voice

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Dec 31, 2024 8:09:43 PM Me

turning myself inside out. transparent on the web. done hiding

Dec 31, 2024 8:10:12 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

LIke hangning my underwear on the clothesline for the neighbors to see

Dec 31, 2024 8:11:28 PM Me

this year has been hard. hardest ever. considering the previous two were the winners… I’m on a streak 🤣

Dec 31, 2024 8:11:54 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

I know it’s a different situation… the more I share what it was like caregiving my dad before he died - and caregiving for my mom now.. a few people come to me and share their caregiving story. There’s something about telling the truth about hard situations that connect

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Dec 31, 2024 8:12:14 PM Me

agreed

Dec 31, 2024 8:12:43 PM +18057981295

I really hope you find something that helps alleviate the depression You are unstoppable

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Dec 31, 2024 8:15:04 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

if one is undistracted by society and culture long enough you see mortality laid bare and therein lies the never-ending pursuit of distraction from it. its when you have to stay in that space, with no easy way out, that you can get comfortable with what most people consider VERY uncomfortable.

Dec 31, 2024 8:15:29 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I have huge respect for ppl who work in these spaces

Dec 31, 2024 8:15:58 PM Me

those that help others dealing with heavy loads

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Dec 31, 2024 8:16:53 PM +18057981295

For sure

Dec 31, 2024 8:20:37 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

— It wasnt until this past month that the following really sunk in after doing an intake. I first tried to commit suicide at 16. I was one footstep away and something outside me stopped it. I didn’t know what was going on with myself. Didnt know what depression was — it was 1985, not a time of mental health awareness. I stuffed that incident deep inside and shared with no one for over 20 years. From that it struck me that I’ve lived with depression for 40 years on some level. I’m unsure if I’ve every truly expereinced existing without it. Basically I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t depressed or anxious going back as far as I have memories.

Dec 31, 2024 8:21:59 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

So if you have no baseline reference of what existence is without it?? My brain went

Dec 31, 2024 8:22:00 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

🤯

Dec 31, 2024 8:22:34 PM Me

I’m left wondering if I’ve ever known life without it. Weird question

Dec 31, 2024 8:23:12 PM (Read by you after 46 seconds) +18057981295

Here’s to the insights that help us explain, heal and recreate us

Dec 31, 2024 8:23:56 PM (Read by you after 2 seconds) +18057981295

That sounds like you’ve done a tremendous amount of work on yourself, self reflection and study

Dec 31, 2024 8:25:03 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

hahaha. I’ve done nothing but be inside my head for 18 mos solid. I’ve been to lots of places through my meditation practice. Over 32,000 minutes tracked now.

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Dec 31, 2024 8:25:24 PM Me

I found the place inside me where nothing can touch me

Dec 31, 2024 8:25:33 PM Me

I mean NOTHING

Dec 31, 2024 8:26:13 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I can also flat-line thought and notice nothing but breathing for long stretches. You actually look forward to getting there

Dec 31, 2024 8:27:28 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

its like the incessant distractions, like smartphones however, you turn inside, instead of out. Far, far more rewarding experience. Even as depressed as I am and cant shake it.

Dec 31, 2024 8:27:48 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I’ve done enough to know that my clarity is crystal.

Dec 31, 2024 8:28:54 PM Me

— its honestly a hard mind shift because I get bored listening to people talk about numbing distractions like diddy or the kardashians

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Dec 31, 2024 8:29:29 PM Me

I new you’d find that funny

Dec 31, 2024 8:29:30 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

haha

Dec 31, 2024 8:29:37 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

Definitely gives you a fine filter

Dec 31, 2024 8:30:07 PM Me

true. and iimpossible to turn off the awareness now

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Dec 31, 2024 8:31:10 PM Me

its a way of being “overly awake” without effort. You simply see so much that others are either blind to, or aware and numb/distracting

Dec 31, 2024 8:33:02 PM Me

I now find people who cant relate exhausting. I politely excuse myself and dont return. I finally learned boundaries. No longer sitting around “to be nice” or afraid of “others not liking me”

Dec 31, 2024 8:33:39 PM +18057981295

| Well, I hope you find an outlet for this hard earned wisdom There’s so much nonsense and violence out there, this is what we need. Real talk, I afraid of connection
Edited 34 seconds later | Well, I hope you find an outlet for this hard earned wisdom There’s so much nonsense and violence out there, this is what we need. Real talk, not afraid of connection

Dec 31, 2024 8:33:52 PM Me

bingo!

Dec 31, 2024 8:34:00 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

thanks for chatting!

Dec 31, 2024 8:34:29 PM +18057981295

Happy new year my friend :)

Dec 31, 2024 8:34:38 PM Me

and thanks for texting before. It was cool to get your note to fall out of the sky

Dec 31, 2024 8:34:47 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

I was in a dark place at the time

Dec 31, 2024 8:34:59 PM Me

Universe had you send me a note

Dec 31, 2024 8:35:04 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

😊

Dec 31, 2024 8:35:22 PM (Read by them after 1 second) Me

Happy New Year to you and Dr Jason! Please say hello from me.

Dec 31, 2024 8:35:41 PM +18057981295

That makes me happy. Thanks Feels good to know there’s friends out there

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Dec 31, 2024 8:35:46 PM (Read by you after 1 second) +18057981295

Will do

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